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So.
Mom told me earlier today that she wishes I could be home. So we talked. And she's told me it's completely okay with her if I put in a two weeks notice. That would give me a full paycheck and about a half a paycheck to help with bills while looking for something different.
I.. don't know how I feel about this!
On one hand I feel so glad because oh god I was not made for customer service, and I am no good at trying to sell/sign people up for shit they do not need.
On the other hand, I feel crazy guilty even considering quitting considering the economy, and how many people would beat me silly for a job like mine. That, and I know I am going to feel guilty when the two weeks is up and I contribute nothing to our money situation. I don't know how long it would take to find something else I'm more suited for, or that would be easier on our hours.
+ I really would like to find something else. - Then again, I really ought to be saving up money for mom for when I attempt to leave for basic (assuming I can lose the rest of the weight, of course.) + This would give me more time to help around the house and get into a workout schedule, to lose that weight. - I would no longer be helping with the bills. That's an extra 200-300 dollars a month mom would be paying.
fffff OH GOD THE GUILT.
I'm sorry for whining guys. I know this is a really shitty thing to be whining over. I think I'm gonna do it though. I will find some way to save money and help with the bills.
oh god the guilt!
♥
Mom told me earlier today that she wishes I could be home. So we talked. And she's told me it's completely okay with her if I put in a two weeks notice. That would give me a full paycheck and about a half a paycheck to help with bills while looking for something different.
I.. don't know how I feel about this!
On one hand I feel so glad because oh god I was not made for customer service, and I am no good at trying to sell/sign people up for shit they do not need.
On the other hand, I feel crazy guilty even considering quitting considering the economy, and how many people would beat me silly for a job like mine. That, and I know I am going to feel guilty when the two weeks is up and I contribute nothing to our money situation. I don't know how long it would take to find something else I'm more suited for, or that would be easier on our hours.
+ I really would like to find something else. - Then again, I really ought to be saving up money for mom for when I attempt to leave for basic (assuming I can lose the rest of the weight, of course.) + This would give me more time to help around the house and get into a workout schedule, to lose that weight. - I would no longer be helping with the bills. That's an extra 200-300 dollars a month mom would be paying.
fffff OH GOD THE GUILT.
I'm sorry for whining guys. I know this is a really shitty thing to be whining over. I think I'm gonna do it though. I will find some way to save money and help with the bills.
oh god the guilt!
♥