[ i'm a fool, whose tool is small ]
So, today was shit.
I won't waste everyone's time whining about how or why because the day is almost over and hopefully tomorrow will be better.
But, yeah.
Shit, completely.
IN OTHER NEWS- my mother once again does not believe in privacy. This journal may or may not become entirely f-locked soon. because I don't need nosy whores all up in my business. 8|
she also seems to think that me wasting 4 years of my life in the air force is a good idea. Is it an entirely bad idea? no, not at all. Does that mean I should sign my life away right the fuck now? no. sorry, mum, but as exciting as the Philippines and Hawaii may be, I don't think you saw "the world" and I don't think I will be seeing it either. lying about who I am and not being able to be myself just doesn't seem worth it. but she's right- it would get me out of cove. oh, dilemma!
I haven't mentioned Austin Community College yet. I think I need to read up on it this week and weekend, while she's away 3 days and 4 nights for reserve's stuff, and then I'll see if it's even worth mentioning.
as well, mom does not seem to approve of me getting my tongue split. it's not like I'm going to do it RIGHT THE FUCK NOW. or even at all. I just think it's something interesting to think about, for fuck's sake.
I don't know why people get so hung up on body mods. It's just interesting. Isn't it? to be something a little different (or a lot different) than what you spent the past x-amount of years being?
god it's all so expensive though.
I think I have better chances of just winning the lotto than getting a goddamn job. oh, look, this turned into whining anyway.
SORRY ABOUT THAT.
TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER, OR SOMETHING.
♥
I won't waste everyone's time whining about how or why because the day is almost over and hopefully tomorrow will be better.
But, yeah.
Shit, completely.
IN OTHER NEWS- my mother once again does not believe in privacy. This journal may or may not become entirely f-locked soon. because I don't need nosy whores all up in my business. 8|
she also seems to think that me wasting 4 years of my life in the air force is a good idea. Is it an entirely bad idea? no, not at all. Does that mean I should sign my life away right the fuck now? no. sorry, mum, but as exciting as the Philippines and Hawaii may be, I don't think you saw "the world" and I don't think I will be seeing it either. lying about who I am and not being able to be myself just doesn't seem worth it. but she's right- it would get me out of cove. oh, dilemma!
I haven't mentioned Austin Community College yet. I think I need to read up on it this week and weekend, while she's away 3 days and 4 nights for reserve's stuff, and then I'll see if it's even worth mentioning.
as well, mom does not seem to approve of me getting my tongue split. it's not like I'm going to do it RIGHT THE FUCK NOW. or even at all. I just think it's something interesting to think about, for fuck's sake.
I don't know why people get so hung up on body mods. It's just interesting. Isn't it? to be something a little different (or a lot different) than what you spent the past x-amount of years being?
god it's all so expensive though.
I think I have better chances of just winning the lotto than getting a goddamn job. oh, look, this turned into whining anyway.
SORRY ABOUT THAT.
TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER, OR SOMETHING.
♥