To following your heart
I try not to do it but sometimes it comes up in my head. Some of the best things in life that i've had I've lost, and I'm trying to learn how to deal with it. I have regret for putting myself in situations where this could be prevented. And I keep saying it was better to have one great day then none at all, and that is true. But knowing what I could have all the time and knowing what could be waiting, and not knowing everything else, it just wears on me. I can't just leave things as they are... I'm a what ifs kind of person. I just write and think and talk about it... I guess thats the only way to deal. Turn it into something good, stop obsessing ( I haven't got that down yet). Its good and bad and I'm really happy about everything he taught me, because he's made a bigger impact on my life than anyone else I've ever met, except my parents. So I guess it was worth it. My little heart just hurts a bit.