T minus 7 Days and Counting
As all of you are well aware I'm due to take a company field trip to the Sanbox a week from today. If you're dumb and you don't know what that means, I'm going to Iraq next Sunday. I have precisely one week left, and as expected I'm pretty much in limbo between wanting to go and not wanting to. Being as I have no choice in the matter I guess I'll go, but theres things I need to get out this week, and only a few people will hear these things as the final days tick away.
As it stands right now, things for me haven't truly been better (all things considering) in a LONG LONG time. While I said I wouldn't do it, it's in my nature so I automatically do. I've been looking and thinking about the future in everything with my life and can only see good things happening. I do of course wish some things could be different, but they aren't and I've come to accept that. I've also realized that maybe this time apart is good for us. (only those aware of my situation should know what I'm saying here).
There are some good reasons I don't want to go, and some even better reasons I do want to go. Let's start with the reasons not to. First, I just spent 2 years in Germany where I was +7 hours ahead of home I finally get back stateside where our times are nearly the same, only to go back where I'll be a minimum of +9 hours. You can see my disappointment in that. Second, yes I'm trained for it, but it's still something I was hoping to avoid in my career. I'd rather stay safe if you ask me. And lastly, IT'S FUCKING HOT OVER THERE!!!
Now the reasons I WANT to go. First, going now for 6 months means I won't have to go again before I get out next June (unless I re enlist which I'm more then likely not going to), and if I didn't go now I'd go this summer for a year, meaning I wouldn't get out on time. Second, I go now and I can be home in September for Wayde's wedding and even apple picking in Afton with the family maybe. Lastly, this is what I signed up to do. Just sitting in a safe place is not taking full advantage of everything the army trained me for. I didn't spend the first 9 weeks of my career just to sit around and look at myself.
So as you can see, I'm pretty much inbetween a lot of things in my mind. And through this final week I'll be getting myself ready for probably the best and worst time of my life. As they say, Mind over Matter: If you don't mind, it just don't matter. Over these last few days, I will do everything in my power to talk to anyone and everyone that means anything to me. Saturday and Sunday especially will be more reserved for "special" people in my life so to speak.
That's it from here, more to come later of course
SPC Jason Rynders 63B US ARMY
As it stands right now, things for me haven't truly been better (all things considering) in a LONG LONG time. While I said I wouldn't do it, it's in my nature so I automatically do. I've been looking and thinking about the future in everything with my life and can only see good things happening. I do of course wish some things could be different, but they aren't and I've come to accept that. I've also realized that maybe this time apart is good for us. (only those aware of my situation should know what I'm saying here).
There are some good reasons I don't want to go, and some even better reasons I do want to go. Let's start with the reasons not to. First, I just spent 2 years in Germany where I was +7 hours ahead of home I finally get back stateside where our times are nearly the same, only to go back where I'll be a minimum of +9 hours. You can see my disappointment in that. Second, yes I'm trained for it, but it's still something I was hoping to avoid in my career. I'd rather stay safe if you ask me. And lastly, IT'S FUCKING HOT OVER THERE!!!
Now the reasons I WANT to go. First, going now for 6 months means I won't have to go again before I get out next June (unless I re enlist which I'm more then likely not going to), and if I didn't go now I'd go this summer for a year, meaning I wouldn't get out on time. Second, I go now and I can be home in September for Wayde's wedding and even apple picking in Afton with the family maybe. Lastly, this is what I signed up to do. Just sitting in a safe place is not taking full advantage of everything the army trained me for. I didn't spend the first 9 weeks of my career just to sit around and look at myself.
So as you can see, I'm pretty much inbetween a lot of things in my mind. And through this final week I'll be getting myself ready for probably the best and worst time of my life. As they say, Mind over Matter: If you don't mind, it just don't matter. Over these last few days, I will do everything in my power to talk to anyone and everyone that means anything to me. Saturday and Sunday especially will be more reserved for "special" people in my life so to speak.
That's it from here, more to come later of course
SPC Jason Rynders 63B US ARMY