C'est la vie
Life is still going pretty well for me. My job is still awesome, although I'm not sure if I'll be getting a ferret soon or not. (Oh noes! I'll just have to visit Armond and Moose some more!!! Nooo! The horror!) I'm working on getting into the University, I'm applying to a couple zoos and I'm waiting to hear back from the Shedd.
A couple things have been getting on my nerves though. Most of it is me being dumb and self conscious, I'm sure. Which just irritates me more. Have you ever had a problem you wanted to fix, but it just seems nigh on impossible? I know a lot of my friends get frustrated, but I really do have a very low opinion of myself. Which is annoying, even to me. It's just hard for me to think of myself as attractive. I've always felt like a bigger girl. Yes, I know, that means I have curves, but it's not curves when your stomach jiggles when you walk. I know I have fairly well developed abs under there, I just can't find them. I do realize that losing 10, 15, 20, however many pounds won't fix my problem, but I really would like to stop gaining weight and lose a bit of weight. I've gone from 130 at the beginning of high school, to 150 after Elizabeth, to my current 180. Is it bad of me to want to drop some of that? I promise I'm not going to do anything stupid, like get an ED, or take some diet pills. That would just be silly. I am thinking of training for a marathon though. I haven't done one in a while, but it wasn't overly hard to work up to. Or maybe a triathlon. A small one, not like the Iron man in Hawaii, but more like the King's trail triathlon I did in Maui. I'd just need to buy or borrow a bike though.
All in all, I've got a couple other things that have been annoying me, but I'm really trying not to let them bother me. I don't want or need people to influence me and my feelings anymore. At least not negatively. I'm working on not letting other's opinions of me or my actions bother me at all. Yay independence!
A couple things have been getting on my nerves though. Most of it is me being dumb and self conscious, I'm sure. Which just irritates me more. Have you ever had a problem you wanted to fix, but it just seems nigh on impossible? I know a lot of my friends get frustrated, but I really do have a very low opinion of myself. Which is annoying, even to me. It's just hard for me to think of myself as attractive. I've always felt like a bigger girl. Yes, I know, that means I have curves, but it's not curves when your stomach jiggles when you walk. I know I have fairly well developed abs under there, I just can't find them. I do realize that losing 10, 15, 20, however many pounds won't fix my problem, but I really would like to stop gaining weight and lose a bit of weight. I've gone from 130 at the beginning of high school, to 150 after Elizabeth, to my current 180. Is it bad of me to want to drop some of that? I promise I'm not going to do anything stupid, like get an ED, or take some diet pills. That would just be silly. I am thinking of training for a marathon though. I haven't done one in a while, but it wasn't overly hard to work up to. Or maybe a triathlon. A small one, not like the Iron man in Hawaii, but more like the King's trail triathlon I did in Maui. I'd just need to buy or borrow a bike though.
All in all, I've got a couple other things that have been annoying me, but I'm really trying not to let them bother me. I don't want or need people to influence me and my feelings anymore. At least not negatively. I'm working on not letting other's opinions of me or my actions bother me at all. Yay independence!