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people in general seem to be rubbing me up the wrong way a lot lately
at the moment, i want to hurt
i want the pain on the inside to show on the outside
i want self destruction
i got asked to go hang at a friends house tonight. its gonna be 4 of us. the plan, apparently is, to watch freaking stargate and another friend and i are gonna sit and drink in the corner. it sounds totally unappealing...
...just finished organising this stupid get together. i'm not going. fuck them all. i dont want to leave the house. i just want to be by myself. im sick of everyone. i dont want to have to turn my phone on in the morning. i dont want to have to go to tafe or to work. i just want to stay in my room all day
its getting to the point where i dont and sometimes even wont open my mail. fucking hell my phones ringing and i just dont even want to answer it...
fucking hell
i just want the world to leave me alone
it seems i AM going now, but fuck i just dont want to. liz's fiance is having a rough night and i need to be free to go to hers just in case, but the only reason i'd go to my friends thing tonite is so i can get completely fucked up. and i want to say no but theyre practically begging me to come. i just hate being put in these situations. its too much
what happens if i do go and get completely fucked up and an hour later i get a phone call saying hey i need you to come over and drive me and my fiance to the hospital?
seems im gonna go get extremely fucked up tonight
at the moment, i want to hurt
i want the pain on the inside to show on the outside
i want self destruction
i got asked to go hang at a friends house tonight. its gonna be 4 of us. the plan, apparently is, to watch freaking stargate and another friend and i are gonna sit and drink in the corner. it sounds totally unappealing...
...just finished organising this stupid get together. i'm not going. fuck them all. i dont want to leave the house. i just want to be by myself. im sick of everyone. i dont want to have to turn my phone on in the morning. i dont want to have to go to tafe or to work. i just want to stay in my room all day
its getting to the point where i dont and sometimes even wont open my mail. fucking hell my phones ringing and i just dont even want to answer it...
fucking hell
i just want the world to leave me alone
it seems i AM going now, but fuck i just dont want to. liz's fiance is having a rough night and i need to be free to go to hers just in case, but the only reason i'd go to my friends thing tonite is so i can get completely fucked up. and i want to say no but theyre practically begging me to come. i just hate being put in these situations. its too much
what happens if i do go and get completely fucked up and an hour later i get a phone call saying hey i need you to come over and drive me and my fiance to the hospital?
seems im gonna go get extremely fucked up tonight