welcome to the confessional. spill your thoughts cos i am here to listen
damnit. not being able to drink for so long has sort of sucked the fun out of wanting to drink or even being able to drink now
it's so much easier having no friends than lots of friends. the more the friends, the more time you spend out with more people, leaving less time to spend with the rest of your friends. if you have no friends, you don't have to worry about anything but yourself
if i could feel anything now, it would probably be excitement and disappointment. excitement for starting my new job saturday, and disappointment in myself that i wasnt there for rob, and that he couldn't tell me that he needed me
last night, i couldnt sleep. there was a point at about 2am when i was listening to my music, something extremely emotive as is my type, and i was lying on my side in my bed. all of a sudden i start getting really worked up. like anxiety, but without the heart pounding. i start breathing faster and getting dizzy, and i start feeling like me and my bed are moving from horizontal to vertical, and i couldn't stop it feeling like that. i was trying to make everything normal but it just felt like everything kept moving. i hate it when shit like that happens
i miss being normal. but insanity is much more fun
it's so much easier having no friends than lots of friends. the more the friends, the more time you spend out with more people, leaving less time to spend with the rest of your friends. if you have no friends, you don't have to worry about anything but yourself
if i could feel anything now, it would probably be excitement and disappointment. excitement for starting my new job saturday, and disappointment in myself that i wasnt there for rob, and that he couldn't tell me that he needed me
last night, i couldnt sleep. there was a point at about 2am when i was listening to my music, something extremely emotive as is my type, and i was lying on my side in my bed. all of a sudden i start getting really worked up. like anxiety, but without the heart pounding. i start breathing faster and getting dizzy, and i start feeling like me and my bed are moving from horizontal to vertical, and i couldn't stop it feeling like that. i was trying to make everything normal but it just felt like everything kept moving. i hate it when shit like that happens
i miss being normal. but insanity is much more fun