Hello again
A lot has happened since my last post. Not a lot of big things, which is good, but you know the daily grind and living and learning and growing up stuff. That was a lot of ands... sorry about that. About a week ago my boyfriend and I ended things. I'm still not sure if they're for good yet. It's definitely hard to let go of something you've held for so long. It was my longest relationship to date and the most... dramatic of all of them as well. Starting out in our relationship I didn't think that we would have lasted as long as we had, mostly because I knew how he was in high school. He was most definitely seen as the player kind of guy but we had similar life experiences and similar goals so it was definitely easy to get caught up in all of it. It's hard to say exactly when I knew things were less than perfect. Ideally we all strive for perfection in our relationships or stability or consistency. I don't think I ever really felt that with him. I have a full time job and I'm here in California 24/7 but he's all over the place. He goes to school in Louisiana and is only here on breaks kind of takes a toll on you. But even worse, when we were together it seemed to me that he would have rather been out every night... It's hard growing into a full-fledged adult while trying to balance with someone else who's doing the same thing but going somewhere else.
Work's work.
My dad has offered to pay for me to go back to school. Which is super nice I'm just conflicted as what to do regarding work. Although I already tod my current manager that there's a good chance that I would be leaving. But I'm just not sure as to when that is.
Sorry if this seems kind of scrambled. It's been a long time since I've put any of my thoughts down anywhere. :)