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I need to write tonight...
I just don't know where to start...
I have grief therapy tomorrow and I jusst don't want to go... Is it when you are trying to talk your self out of something you really need it? I sit and look at some of my writings from last year and see the pain but I don't feel it as intensely.
Today I know life will never be the same… I have lost far more than I have ever had…
They say that grief recovery you should regain who you were before the death…
How is that ever possible with the trauma just one facets in life?
The emphasize that you should not burden your self with expectations and that you quickly recover from loss because you don’t…
Your life has forever changed by the event or action of death. I feel that I spending my whole life trying to accommodate with what has happened.
You have seen my reaction death and how it has paralyzed me. There is no way to explain what has happened or my reactions to multiple traumas
Death to me has been like the ultimate betrayal. It is like death is my best friend who has repeatedly slapped me in the face… I think I can move on from something yet I can’t seem too…
What is my identity now? Who am I? With each loss it’s been a different experience… I have been affected as a granddaughter, daughter, niece, friend, best friend, girlfriend, and former fiancé. The list never seems to lesson… but the lessons get harder…
The agony of my grief… the changes that have been forced… I don’t know who I am or ever was… What do I like? What do I love? This is my life or is it some sort of sick joke? Am I paying for something in the past? Please tell me so I can move on…
I just don't know where to start...
I have grief therapy tomorrow and I jusst don't want to go... Is it when you are trying to talk your self out of something you really need it? I sit and look at some of my writings from last year and see the pain but I don't feel it as intensely.
Today I know life will never be the same… I have lost far more than I have ever had…
They say that grief recovery you should regain who you were before the death…
How is that ever possible with the trauma just one facets in life?
The emphasize that you should not burden your self with expectations and that you quickly recover from loss because you don’t…
Your life has forever changed by the event or action of death. I feel that I spending my whole life trying to accommodate with what has happened.
You have seen my reaction death and how it has paralyzed me. There is no way to explain what has happened or my reactions to multiple traumas
Death to me has been like the ultimate betrayal. It is like death is my best friend who has repeatedly slapped me in the face… I think I can move on from something yet I can’t seem too…
What is my identity now? Who am I? With each loss it’s been a different experience… I have been affected as a granddaughter, daughter, niece, friend, best friend, girlfriend, and former fiancé. The list never seems to lesson… but the lessons get harder…
The agony of my grief… the changes that have been forced… I don’t know who I am or ever was… What do I like? What do I love? This is my life or is it some sort of sick joke? Am I paying for something in the past? Please tell me so I can move on…