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It's late... Almost New Years Eve
I'm sitting still and in silence after a long day.
I picked my friend and his partner up at the airport about 9:00 am and am just getting back home after working and going to a show with them where I work this evening. It is now almost 12:00 am.
I've had the best day with them.
It's sort of odd. I can not remember when I had this much fun with them and even in the presence of my peers at work. Odd also because I really opened up to my friends partner and let him see a side of me that Jeff rarely sees anymore with a little help from this social lubricant that we call alcohol.
Funny, for the first time in 2 years, I felt present at Christmas time. I was bad and only sent out a few Christmas cards (like 4) and was able to give very few gifts this year. I ended up having a really bad kidney infection and slept through most of it again this year. It was different. The pain of my loss had lessened, but right now in this moment I miss some others in my life so much that I sit here and cry and wonder what it is really all about.
I think I need to take my arse to bed...
Good Night and Happy New Year to all!
I'm sitting still and in silence after a long day.
I picked my friend and his partner up at the airport about 9:00 am and am just getting back home after working and going to a show with them where I work this evening. It is now almost 12:00 am.
I've had the best day with them.
It's sort of odd. I can not remember when I had this much fun with them and even in the presence of my peers at work. Odd also because I really opened up to my friends partner and let him see a side of me that Jeff rarely sees anymore with a little help from this social lubricant that we call alcohol.
Funny, for the first time in 2 years, I felt present at Christmas time. I was bad and only sent out a few Christmas cards (like 4) and was able to give very few gifts this year. I ended up having a really bad kidney infection and slept through most of it again this year. It was different. The pain of my loss had lessened, but right now in this moment I miss some others in my life so much that I sit here and cry and wonder what it is really all about.
I think I need to take my arse to bed...
Good Night and Happy New Year to all!