baby you can drive my car
So today was alot of fun. woke up late, called a lost buddy, he was "busy" or getting, and went with john to berryessa. didnt go hiking, but drove, talked and listened. it was good. no alcohol was necessary. and only a few boring parts.
so i make things really awkward alot, and well, i mean to, but not always. but people are awkwarded(not a word) by things i say or do alot. oh well, what am i supposed to do? also, ..........alot i feel like i cant say anything with people around because i dont think they believe the same things as me. but they slip out often and make things wierd. like, i believe in honesty and caring. ok ill stop becuase those are way too general, and arent really things i can believe in. ugh. gosh darnit. why are people such damn capitalist individualist greedy critical assholes? all these stupid wars our country fights distract us from our internal problems that we(we being americans)almost all agree on, yet ignore as much as possible. why? i want to stand up and talk about them. i want to start a change in mindset. and yet its so hard because nobode else does. so alot of what i want to say is "bs" or doesnt make sense to others.
have you seen i heart huckabees? which should i say is right? is everything connected and i should try to be a good person? or is everything chaotic and i shouldnt care about anything or anyone else? and how can i possibly do a mixture of the two? which things or aspects of life would fall into which category?
on another note...c.c.c.b.b.b.f.f.f thats sounds right.....
i have alot of hope right now. but with my relationship, i feel super. it feel at a pretty good place. just alot of missing. too much missing. 13 more days. fabulous!!
so i make things really awkward alot, and well, i mean to, but not always. but people are awkwarded(not a word) by things i say or do alot. oh well, what am i supposed to do? also, ..........alot i feel like i cant say anything with people around because i dont think they believe the same things as me. but they slip out often and make things wierd. like, i believe in honesty and caring. ok ill stop becuase those are way too general, and arent really things i can believe in. ugh. gosh darnit. why are people such damn capitalist individualist greedy critical assholes? all these stupid wars our country fights distract us from our internal problems that we(we being americans)almost all agree on, yet ignore as much as possible. why? i want to stand up and talk about them. i want to start a change in mindset. and yet its so hard because nobode else does. so alot of what i want to say is "bs" or doesnt make sense to others.
have you seen i heart huckabees? which should i say is right? is everything connected and i should try to be a good person? or is everything chaotic and i shouldnt care about anything or anyone else? and how can i possibly do a mixture of the two? which things or aspects of life would fall into which category?
on another note...c.c.c.b.b.b.f.f.f thats sounds right.....
i have alot of hope right now. but with my relationship, i feel super. it feel at a pretty good place. just alot of missing. too much missing. 13 more days. fabulous!!