May 20, 2005 23:44
Final #2=done. Work=boring. waiting for friends=sucks.
I have 1 and a half essays to write for monday. I will do them on Saturday. then relax on sunday. woooooooo.
Guess what everyone: 22 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then Monika is home.... I cant wait.
So coke, the soda is bad, tastes good, but its really bad for you. Coke the drug even worse, why do people do it? All you who do it, youre fucking idiots. If youre my friend and you do coke, this may sound harsh, but consider yourself not my friend, or barely my friend anymore.
We went to a party, walk in the door, I say hi to one person, turn to my right, walk into the kitchen, a coke deal. Right there in front of me. This actually makes me question alot of things. why do I, or most people have such a bad image of coke, i mean its a drug, but so is alcohol and so is marijuana. Is it really that much more worse, that much more bad? Should I get upset about people doing coke and not about pot or drinkng? This is an internal dilema. But i think Im sticking with my first feelings about it for now.
Im so very tired, but im very happy inside. I talked to Monika on thursday, it was very good, and ive just been feeling good ever since. I love that. Just how people, usually certain people can make you feel good. She always makes feel good. This may be too many goods, but i think thats a good thing.
Why are we so self conscious? Why do we doubt ourselves so much? Its quite a bummer.
Joe and Rachel are probably making out as we speak. They dropped me off first. Hahaha.