Did you ever feel....
Hey all...have you ever felt like you were meant for something else? If something that seemed so different that it couldn't be real, it seems to bend the very fabric of reality, but seems so logical?
How about if you did something but never could completely finish? Whether by choice, seperation, or any other circumstances. When you forget about it, never really think about it and feel safe, you feel...lost, or confused? Maybe guilt for not fulfilling your job you declaired when you first started?
Throughout my life I've felt different. I know I've been saying this since I started this LiveJournal, but I mean, I'm not normal. I'm careless when nothing is on the line, I'm mostly always happy, but when push comes to shove if I lose it then I black out sort of. I can see whats going on but I can't stop, and I don't want to. But also if something is bugging my friends, I can NOT rest untill I help in some way or another.
Another reason is sometimes when I'm told about stuff that just seems so surreal...so crazy, but I feel that they could be right, and I understand. I don't know how to explain it, but I WANT to help, I WANT to do something besides grow up, grow old, and die. I want to live, I want to fight, I want to die in the face of danger or die of old age knowing I saved the world somehow.
There's this craving I've never really been able to describe. Is it this craving thats making my reality bend and thus believe? Or is this craving also a way to know if the person is right? If the craving is stronger does that mean it's true?
When a friend comes to me in need I can always be there to help and give very helpfull knowledge, even if I haven't had the personal experience. Why am I wise beyond my years yet I'm not that smart? I'm not saying I'm stupid, but I know my limits, and day after day I try my hardest to surpass them, and hopefully I succeed, but still, why am I given this completely different set of wisdom? For what purpose?
I want to know my true reason for living. Sometimes I feel so alone because I feel like I was born in the wrong time frame. I love to fight, I want to protect the innocence, I want to be an adventurere. But there are always things to stop me, family, friends. There is a reason for every birth and every death, but why me at this time?
Have you ever felt like you werre meant for something more...?
How about if you did something but never could completely finish? Whether by choice, seperation, or any other circumstances. When you forget about it, never really think about it and feel safe, you feel...lost, or confused? Maybe guilt for not fulfilling your job you declaired when you first started?
Throughout my life I've felt different. I know I've been saying this since I started this LiveJournal, but I mean, I'm not normal. I'm careless when nothing is on the line, I'm mostly always happy, but when push comes to shove if I lose it then I black out sort of. I can see whats going on but I can't stop, and I don't want to. But also if something is bugging my friends, I can NOT rest untill I help in some way or another.
Another reason is sometimes when I'm told about stuff that just seems so surreal...so crazy, but I feel that they could be right, and I understand. I don't know how to explain it, but I WANT to help, I WANT to do something besides grow up, grow old, and die. I want to live, I want to fight, I want to die in the face of danger or die of old age knowing I saved the world somehow.
There's this craving I've never really been able to describe. Is it this craving thats making my reality bend and thus believe? Or is this craving also a way to know if the person is right? If the craving is stronger does that mean it's true?
When a friend comes to me in need I can always be there to help and give very helpfull knowledge, even if I haven't had the personal experience. Why am I wise beyond my years yet I'm not that smart? I'm not saying I'm stupid, but I know my limits, and day after day I try my hardest to surpass them, and hopefully I succeed, but still, why am I given this completely different set of wisdom? For what purpose?
I want to know my true reason for living. Sometimes I feel so alone because I feel like I was born in the wrong time frame. I love to fight, I want to protect the innocence, I want to be an adventurere. But there are always things to stop me, family, friends. There is a reason for every birth and every death, but why me at this time?
Have you ever felt like you werre meant for something more...?