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So....I have a secret.....I'm too embarrassed of myself to reconnect with my old friends. I feel extremely uncomfortable in any social situation unless I have a day to prepare for it. I've spent this summer holed up in my room reading because I'm too anxious to meet up with anyone. I don't have any of the same interests I used to have and I've packed on 20 lbs. Not that anyone really gives a shit about that, y'know, but it weighs on me-- literally. All I can think of is, "Why would anyone want to spend time with me when I don't even want to?"
I really, really need to find myself before I lose myself completely.
I really, really need to find myself before I lose myself completely.