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I'm tired of going through life embarrassed and anxious about everything.
My phone conversation last night was just a giant slap in the face about how good I had it...but I need to remember that it didn't feel good at the time. I was paranoid and unsure and wanted breathing room to reevaluate my choices but instead I just kept pushing ahead with everything I had already chosen and it fucked me over completely in the end because I'm still here and unhappy and still stuck in the middle with nothing to show for it.
Is transferring to UW really going to change anything?
I don't think I'm ever going to find my place, and that thought drags me down every goddamned fucking day.
I'm supposed to go on a date tonight and then hang out at Elliott's fraternity and then go to a sigma social....but all I really want to do is crawl in bed and sleep these thoughts off some more.
My phone conversation last night was just a giant slap in the face about how good I had it...but I need to remember that it didn't feel good at the time. I was paranoid and unsure and wanted breathing room to reevaluate my choices but instead I just kept pushing ahead with everything I had already chosen and it fucked me over completely in the end because I'm still here and unhappy and still stuck in the middle with nothing to show for it.
Is transferring to UW really going to change anything?
I don't think I'm ever going to find my place, and that thought drags me down every goddamned fucking day.
I'm supposed to go on a date tonight and then hang out at Elliott's fraternity and then go to a sigma social....but all I really want to do is crawl in bed and sleep these thoughts off some more.