take the cannonball...down to the ocean
k...so im looking for a new picture for my myspace profile, and thought these were interesting and unique. tell me what you think.
i think im slowly starting to gain self confident in myself. usually i would never show people pictures of me, let alone post them on the web, but now...i dunno. ive just come to except who i am.
there is always something people dislike about themselves that other people hardly even notice. but the thing i dislike the most about myself, people notice all the time. people say comments like 'you have such a jewish nose' blahblahblah. it used to bother me alot more than it does now....but its so hard to get out of that state of mind. i love being jewish, dont get me wrong, but i just hate my nose.
i know everyone is thinking 'omg, what a stupid whiney teenager that is so self conscience and focused on the wrong things' well screw you, you know we all think about stuff like this, whether we mean to or not.
neways, so yeah...my mother totally had a nose job when she was younger, cause she definetly looked EXACTLY like me when she was my age. she has told me many times that when i turn 18, that i can do the same thing. at first, i was relieved to hear this. but then i thought about it. why would i want people to like me because of how i look? and why should i care? like seriously, once again, our society is so fucked up. i couldnt believe i actually considered plastic surgery. AH. i mean, how amazing is it to know that people still love you, even if you look like...me. it makes me feel much better about myself. then again, it makes me wonder, who would take the time to get to know me or approach me, if i looked different? but no...those arent people i want to be friends with. those arent people that will always love me, not matter what.
this is one of the reasons why i love my friends.
sorry if u thought this entry was dumb, i was just being honest. most people arent these days.
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