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today was so surreal. i saw the movie 'paperclips'. it was truly an experience. i cant remember the last time i cried that hard...prolly not since finding neverland. dont ever see a sad movie with me, i am such a mess.
it was happy tears though. because that movie gave my life hope, which is has been lacking as of recently. kinda ironic that a holocaust movie made me appreciate life, but i guess thats what a tragic event makes us all realize.
i will never forget...there was this part where they were commemorating this traincar as a memorial in their town, and this little boy was saying the kaddish...and this 94 yr old man that was asleep next to me for most of the movie, woke up and starting reciting the prayer right out loud in the theatre. it was beautiful and i cried like a baby. part of the reasons i love services is the thought that millions of jews all around the world are reciting the same exact words at the same time. its unifying...and i love that wherever i go, if i meet someone jewish, i feel right at home.
jessica was talking to me yesterday...and made me realize something. there is bad in the world...but there is a lot of good, its just more of a challenge to see the good and its much easier to be pessimistic. from now on, im going to try to challenge myself to see the good, however hard that may be.
....so. my mom was talking to me the other day about going to study in israel sometime in highschool. i think this is a really cool idea....but im still uneasy. part of me really hates myers park and thinks that ive seen all it has to offer, and the other part of me doesnt want to miss out on anything...or anyone. i just feel like i need a change. i usually cant sit in one spot for very long.
and also...im worried about my friend. hes so confused right now. i hope he learns to think with his heart and not with his head. i hope all of us do.
p.s. talia is my favorite!