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ive lost all hope for humanity. we are seriously going to blow ourselves up.
all of us are cruel, selfish bastards.
i used to think we were all good deep down inside...but its really hard to remember that when we have all this crap piled on top of us.
i dont know what to do with myself.
i dont know how to react to all this hate.
i know this sounds dumb and out of place, but i really miss cltc at times like these. people there were so loving, we really did have it all.
lately ive noticed that most of my friends that i still have (haha i better not hold my breath) are jews. i dunno if its just a strange coinscidence or that they just tend to understand me more and can relate with my life. kinda interesting.
i miss samantha. she went to the airport today in chicago and stood exactly where we stood when we were on our way to cltc. it made me so happy and sad to hear her message on my phone. it made me happy because i love her so much, and it made me sad cause i wish i was there with her, reminising.
off to temple, (hey its worth a shot, maybe ill become enlightened? *crosses fingers*)
danajustinedepietro
p.s. i know ive upset people, but i dont even know if its worth it to say sorry. i feel like no one will believe me. is it even worth worrying about? im so lost. bleh.