this must be fate.
well shoo i'll do it too.
2008:
this year has seemed like a really long one. maybe because a lot has changed. the beginning of the year seems like ages ago. I just remember the beginning of this year being the time when i had a complete breakdown about where my life was. i hated where i was, and i didn't know what to do. i called natalie one night at like 3 or 4 in the a.m. and we met outside and i just cried and babbled and cried while i told her about how i made the wrong decision to play soccer, to go to hardin simmons, etc. i was too scared to tell anyone else that i hated it. it took me a good 8 months to get up the courage even after that, but i finally quit. that was hands down the biggest thing that happened to me this year. i started to get used to living at school, but still got homesick quite a bit. i watched my sister get married..ah! still weird, but i am so glad aaron is a part of the fam now. i also got to see some stinking amazing concerts, coldplay, death cab, radiohead, kanye..all thoroughly blew my mind. i know i have changed a lot. i am quite positive that i know what i am supposed to do with my life and that i belong in africa with the poor. and i think i have spiritually grown more this year than i ever have before. its weird that since i have gone to such a "conservative" school, i have had some amazing professors that have opened up my eyes to things that have greatly shifted my political leanings. ironically its created some tensions between fam and I. mostly just my mom, but thats beside the point. sadly, i stinking love politics so i emersed myself in so many hours of cnn it was insane, and finally getting to vote was fabulous, and getting to vote for obama and make history was just icing on the cake. i worked at avalanche snow this summer which was a blast/realllyyy boring at times. but i wouldn't trade getting paid to read to sigur ros day after day surrounded by as many sno cones as i want. my uncle went into the hospital, and it was very difficult for my dad, which sucked. this year i started actually praying, instead of just when the situation came that i had to. anyways, for me personally it has changed my life. it is weeeeird to see something that you pray for happen. i dont know it blows my mind. i am glad to finally be getting out of the "if this is even true/if god even exists" mindset i had. while i'm definitely not 100% firm in my beliefs now, i have come to realize that i don't need to have everything explained to me for the bible to make sense, i can just (tryyy to) live a life like jesus with love as the head of it all. two of my friends got engaged! ahhhh! its so crazy that this stuff is happening to us now, but its cool. its weird we're growing up and beginning to grow apart, but that we can still get together and its like we're still in high school..but not. haha. i love you guys, its been a good year.
2008:
this year has seemed like a really long one. maybe because a lot has changed. the beginning of the year seems like ages ago. I just remember the beginning of this year being the time when i had a complete breakdown about where my life was. i hated where i was, and i didn't know what to do. i called natalie one night at like 3 or 4 in the a.m. and we met outside and i just cried and babbled and cried while i told her about how i made the wrong decision to play soccer, to go to hardin simmons, etc. i was too scared to tell anyone else that i hated it. it took me a good 8 months to get up the courage even after that, but i finally quit. that was hands down the biggest thing that happened to me this year. i started to get used to living at school, but still got homesick quite a bit. i watched my sister get married..ah! still weird, but i am so glad aaron is a part of the fam now. i also got to see some stinking amazing concerts, coldplay, death cab, radiohead, kanye..all thoroughly blew my mind. i know i have changed a lot. i am quite positive that i know what i am supposed to do with my life and that i belong in africa with the poor. and i think i have spiritually grown more this year than i ever have before. its weird that since i have gone to such a "conservative" school, i have had some amazing professors that have opened up my eyes to things that have greatly shifted my political leanings. ironically its created some tensions between fam and I. mostly just my mom, but thats beside the point. sadly, i stinking love politics so i emersed myself in so many hours of cnn it was insane, and finally getting to vote was fabulous, and getting to vote for obama and make history was just icing on the cake. i worked at avalanche snow this summer which was a blast/realllyyy boring at times. but i wouldn't trade getting paid to read to sigur ros day after day surrounded by as many sno cones as i want. my uncle went into the hospital, and it was very difficult for my dad, which sucked. this year i started actually praying, instead of just when the situation came that i had to. anyways, for me personally it has changed my life. it is weeeeird to see something that you pray for happen. i dont know it blows my mind. i am glad to finally be getting out of the "if this is even true/if god even exists" mindset i had. while i'm definitely not 100% firm in my beliefs now, i have come to realize that i don't need to have everything explained to me for the bible to make sense, i can just (tryyy to) live a life like jesus with love as the head of it all. two of my friends got engaged! ahhhh! its so crazy that this stuff is happening to us now, but its cool. its weird we're growing up and beginning to grow apart, but that we can still get together and its like we're still in high school..but not. haha. i love you guys, its been a good year.