hmmmm
yea I saw Tiana today while I was drinving past she was with her mother in the car and she was actually smiling and laughing .... do you think this is a sign to move on and get over the fact that everything has happend ... forget her and forget being friends again should I just give up on her ... I dont know I miss her so much and seeing her and not being able to speak with her was like tourcher I mean complete agony I cant even exsplain it .... I miss her so0o0o much I just want to hug her and hold her so nothing shity can happen to her anymore ... I just want to hear the sound of her voice even if the words are I hate you and you suck .... I just want to be able to know she is alright ......
today school was blah .... I am getting put into sped math woot !!! I am glad even tho I will miss everyone in my first blk class ! Ryan he was a cool kid and Morgan too ! :(
I saw Dezzie today she seemed too have her head in the clouds today ... hmmm yea I dont know
My dad's girl friend is up here from Texas ... she is pretty cool her name is Margaret and she has a really weird accent it is pretty cool tho .... she has two daughters and there names are Stephanie and Megan ( omg how fucking freaky)
yea I thought that was funny when she told me ... but she really loves my dad and my dad loves her so I guess if there happy it works ya know what I mean
Kim's gradnfather is in the hostpital and I feel bad for her I know how hard it is to have someone you love deathly ill it totally sucks ....
Amy's friend had her baby I guess so yesterday she was a little stressed out she was totally having a bad day ... I felt bad for her ... yea I knwo how it can be stressful about hwo the to person is and the baby !!!
I feel so lonely at school but I should get use to it seeing as she is never coming back and I wont be able to see her anymore ... but I dont know when she was around I felt as tho I actually fet in and everything was okay I guess but now that she is gone its like .... weird without her I dont see the people that I use to when I was with Tiana and I stand alone by myself ... becuase everyone has there own group and my group was Tiana and I knwo it sounds pathetic but it is true I devoted myself to just her ... and that is why now I dont really have anyone to stick with I mean I do but I dont know Dezzie has Kim and Jackie has Amy and Amy has Jackie .... so its kinda like yea I dont feel like getting in the way when one I already know I have and tow I am so uncomfortable being aournd you that it makes me sick so0o0o I am just stuck ....
I wish Megan came to my school I would totally not care about anything not about friends at school at least I mean having your best friend since 6th grade come to school with you hello ! yea amazing!!!!
I wish things were different but for now I guess they will stay the same until I get up the strenght to change it of start to at least ...
today school was blah .... I am getting put into sped math woot !!! I am glad even tho I will miss everyone in my first blk class ! Ryan he was a cool kid and Morgan too ! :(
I saw Dezzie today she seemed too have her head in the clouds today ... hmmm yea I dont know
My dad's girl friend is up here from Texas ... she is pretty cool her name is Margaret and she has a really weird accent it is pretty cool tho .... she has two daughters and there names are Stephanie and Megan ( omg how fucking freaky)
yea I thought that was funny when she told me ... but she really loves my dad and my dad loves her so I guess if there happy it works ya know what I mean
Kim's gradnfather is in the hostpital and I feel bad for her I know how hard it is to have someone you love deathly ill it totally sucks ....
Amy's friend had her baby I guess so yesterday she was a little stressed out she was totally having a bad day ... I felt bad for her ... yea I knwo how it can be stressful about hwo the to person is and the baby !!!
I feel so lonely at school but I should get use to it seeing as she is never coming back and I wont be able to see her anymore ... but I dont know when she was around I felt as tho I actually fet in and everything was okay I guess but now that she is gone its like .... weird without her I dont see the people that I use to when I was with Tiana and I stand alone by myself ... becuase everyone has there own group and my group was Tiana and I knwo it sounds pathetic but it is true I devoted myself to just her ... and that is why now I dont really have anyone to stick with I mean I do but I dont know Dezzie has Kim and Jackie has Amy and Amy has Jackie .... so its kinda like yea I dont feel like getting in the way when one I already know I have and tow I am so uncomfortable being aournd you that it makes me sick so0o0o I am just stuck ....
I wish Megan came to my school I would totally not care about anything not about friends at school at least I mean having your best friend since 6th grade come to school with you hello ! yea amazing!!!!
I wish things were different but for now I guess they will stay the same until I get up the strenght to change it of start to at least ...