….cause I don’t do to well on my own
As the pendulum is swinging
From side to side I often wonder
Why that the things that mean the most to me
Can never be
I cut my losses and move forward
It’s the end of the summer.
And I’m kinda pissed at myself.
In the beginning I was like “Oh shit I can’t do this”.
Then at the end I was like “Yea, I’m all over this shit!”
But now I’m like “Nope, I can’t do this”.
I said I wouldn’t, and for some stupid reason…I didn’t.
It was illogical to do, and probably not a good idea…but for all I know, it could have been the best idea.
Yea, it’d probably be hard too, but I think it would be awesome.
Oh the ideas I have for it!
And how am I expected to go from nothing to everything overnight?
I need some…practice? We’ll go with practice.
And on a completely different note…
I hate cliques. I hate how they exclude people and have their inside jokes and all that other bullshit.
But I would do anything to be part of a clique.
I’ve never really felt part of a group before.
I’ve been in a group before, but the group has been cliquey…me not being in either.
I’m not even close to my dad anymore. We used to do shit all the time together, and now I barely ever see him.
I just need one person to be really close to. I hate sitting in my room watching tv alone.
I guess I’m just pissed at myself that I didn’t advocate it enough. I gestured here and there, but not enough.
Maybe I’m just too optimistic. I always think things will work out great, but they never do.
I was just hoping to get a real try. I can’t lose all my life can i?
…yea, it’s late, and I’m tired. I didn’t put much effort into making this one vague.
It’s clear as day.
Always been a sucker for a brown-eyed punk rock girl
And for I’d shoot the world
All of that is almost a week old, and still accurate.
It’s funny how quickly we get caught up and lose where we were…
And it’s so easy to say things, but far harder to follow through.
From side to side I often wonder
Why that the things that mean the most to me
Can never be
I cut my losses and move forward
It’s the end of the summer.
And I’m kinda pissed at myself.
In the beginning I was like “Oh shit I can’t do this”.
Then at the end I was like “Yea, I’m all over this shit!”
But now I’m like “Nope, I can’t do this”.
I said I wouldn’t, and for some stupid reason…I didn’t.
It was illogical to do, and probably not a good idea…but for all I know, it could have been the best idea.
Yea, it’d probably be hard too, but I think it would be awesome.
Oh the ideas I have for it!
And how am I expected to go from nothing to everything overnight?
I need some…practice? We’ll go with practice.
And on a completely different note…
I hate cliques. I hate how they exclude people and have their inside jokes and all that other bullshit.
But I would do anything to be part of a clique.
I’ve never really felt part of a group before.
I’ve been in a group before, but the group has been cliquey…me not being in either.
I’m not even close to my dad anymore. We used to do shit all the time together, and now I barely ever see him.
I just need one person to be really close to. I hate sitting in my room watching tv alone.
I guess I’m just pissed at myself that I didn’t advocate it enough. I gestured here and there, but not enough.
Maybe I’m just too optimistic. I always think things will work out great, but they never do.
I was just hoping to get a real try. I can’t lose all my life can i?
…yea, it’s late, and I’m tired. I didn’t put much effort into making this one vague.
It’s clear as day.
Always been a sucker for a brown-eyed punk rock girl
And for I’d shoot the world
All of that is almost a week old, and still accurate.
It’s funny how quickly we get caught up and lose where we were…
And it’s so easy to say things, but far harder to follow through.