UGHH
Can I just take a minute to moan and groan? You guys don't have to read this. I just need to rant for a bit.
Basically, I feel like everything in my life has been royally sucking lately. I hate to complain about anything, mostly because I generally don't like listening to other people complain unless they have a good reason (people in my age group usually don't), but life has just been screwing me over again and again, and I just need to get it out, you know?
It started out that, DURING MID-TERMS WEEK, I got fired from my job of four years because the new manager doesn't like me. After that, I fainted in my bathroom. After that, I found out that my grandmother died-- that's a really complicated story, and basically I didn't really know how to feel about it, but my mom was hurting so I was hurting for her at least. Things calmed down slightly except for the fact that I've yet to find another job because no one is really hiring right now. I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend of five years because he was trying to pressure me into sex (and he's still living in my house, and whether he's doing it consciously or not he's been trying to make me feel bad about breaking up with him). My mom had to go get cat-scans done and I still don't know the results of those. I forgot the words to a song during a singing competition and felt utterly humiliated... and this morning I got a speeding ticket because my speedometer is broken, and I didn't know I was going so fast. If I had a job, it'd be one thing, but now I'm not sure I'm going to be able to pay it, and it's really frustrating me. I still owe money to my accompanist for playing for me in the competition I totally fucked up in, and I don't know where all this money's gonna fucking come from... I still have to buy fucking Christmas presents!
Ugh.
I just...
I need something good to happen. I can't keep taking all of this stuff on. If this kind of stuff keeps up I'm going to break.
Commissions for fic or art are open again.
Comment or message me if you're interested. I really need the money.
Basically, I feel like everything in my life has been royally sucking lately. I hate to complain about anything, mostly because I generally don't like listening to other people complain unless they have a good reason (people in my age group usually don't), but life has just been screwing me over again and again, and I just need to get it out, you know?
It started out that, DURING MID-TERMS WEEK, I got fired from my job of four years because the new manager doesn't like me. After that, I fainted in my bathroom. After that, I found out that my grandmother died-- that's a really complicated story, and basically I didn't really know how to feel about it, but my mom was hurting so I was hurting for her at least. Things calmed down slightly except for the fact that I've yet to find another job because no one is really hiring right now. I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend of five years because he was trying to pressure me into sex (and he's still living in my house, and whether he's doing it consciously or not he's been trying to make me feel bad about breaking up with him). My mom had to go get cat-scans done and I still don't know the results of those. I forgot the words to a song during a singing competition and felt utterly humiliated... and this morning I got a speeding ticket because my speedometer is broken, and I didn't know I was going so fast. If I had a job, it'd be one thing, but now I'm not sure I'm going to be able to pay it, and it's really frustrating me. I still owe money to my accompanist for playing for me in the competition I totally fucked up in, and I don't know where all this money's gonna fucking come from... I still have to buy fucking Christmas presents!
Ugh.
I just...
I need something good to happen. I can't keep taking all of this stuff on. If this kind of stuff keeps up I'm going to break.
Commissions for fic or art are open again.
Comment or message me if you're interested. I really need the money.