on the outside looking in.
ahhh! i dont know whats going on anymore.
i feel like a kid standing in front of a candy store. the candy store represents life and all the wonderful things in it. fun, my friends, happness, self eceptance, and all my dreams. and there i am, on the outside looking in.
its like the doors are locked and i cant get in. and like a qote from a song, 'im serching for the key, the key that will open the door to the world'.
this whole, 'on the outside looking in' thing never used to be this bad. so much has changed latly. my family, my friends, my choises, my life. but i do understand that change is a part of life and you cant stop life from happening, ya know? its just it feels like its been such a fast and dramatic change that i dont know where i am anymore. i feel like i have been picked up and droped off in the middle of nowhere and cant find my way home.
i mean dont get me wrong. something in me has finly clicked and i do feel like i am back on somewhat of the right track. its just it feels like i have a long road ahead of me before im back to where i need to be. ya know? well i can say this. things have definitly gotten better and i am no longer at rock bottom. im working my way back up. i mean there are still a few things that i wish to change and a few things that i wish i could get back that i have lost. but who knows what the futcher has instore. right?
*late*
*ryan*
i feel like a kid standing in front of a candy store. the candy store represents life and all the wonderful things in it. fun, my friends, happness, self eceptance, and all my dreams. and there i am, on the outside looking in.
its like the doors are locked and i cant get in. and like a qote from a song, 'im serching for the key, the key that will open the door to the world'.
this whole, 'on the outside looking in' thing never used to be this bad. so much has changed latly. my family, my friends, my choises, my life. but i do understand that change is a part of life and you cant stop life from happening, ya know? its just it feels like its been such a fast and dramatic change that i dont know where i am anymore. i feel like i have been picked up and droped off in the middle of nowhere and cant find my way home.
i mean dont get me wrong. something in me has finly clicked and i do feel like i am back on somewhat of the right track. its just it feels like i have a long road ahead of me before im back to where i need to be. ya know? well i can say this. things have definitly gotten better and i am no longer at rock bottom. im working my way back up. i mean there are still a few things that i wish to change and a few things that i wish i could get back that i have lost. but who knows what the futcher has instore. right?
*late*
*ryan*