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words cant explain how i feel. the're just words on a page that are motionless, cold, and black. the only way for someone to turely understand is to be there, wach, and listen. but even then no one really understands. they have to be right there, in your head. but that never happends and seems that it never will. there are so many emotions running through my head. they hurt, they love , they lafe, and they cry. i know the way i feel. its almost like a shrp pain sometimes. i here the words people say and it feels like they have cut me open, torn out my heart and kicked me in the face. it hurts me just as bad when i here people say things about other people. why do we do the things we do to people? if only we knew the pain we were causing. think about the pain you feel and then think about those other people out there feeling it 10 times worse.
my life has been like a sad story latly, and seems to have no happy ending. i never asked for the story i was given. this isnt the story i planed on reading.if i could pick up a differnt book i would, but i cant. wheres the happly ever after? it dosnt egsist. but this is the story i was given and i have to learn to read it. i just wish that i had a friend to read it with. but we dont always get what we want, no matter how bad we want it and we just have to learn to deal. so i gess ill just have to read alone for now.
do you ever get that feeling that theres that certin someone out there, somewhere. its like you can almost feel them, here them and see them when you sleep. i get that sometimes and i wonder if they are real. i wonder if they feel the same, and can see, here and feel me in their dreams too. if they are out ther, i wish that they would find me cuz i cant find them. but i have to get my head out of the clouds and face realaty. no matter how bad you want something, you dont always get it. but ill be ok and like always i still have hope and hope has me.
thank you for being my friend and for always being ther for me.
youve given me the hope i needed to be strong and to move on. and for that i thank you.
*love to all my friends from the bottom of my heart*
and hopefuly the next time we speak i wont be so sappy!
*late*
*ryan*
my life has been like a sad story latly, and seems to have no happy ending. i never asked for the story i was given. this isnt the story i planed on reading.if i could pick up a differnt book i would, but i cant. wheres the happly ever after? it dosnt egsist. but this is the story i was given and i have to learn to read it. i just wish that i had a friend to read it with. but we dont always get what we want, no matter how bad we want it and we just have to learn to deal. so i gess ill just have to read alone for now.
do you ever get that feeling that theres that certin someone out there, somewhere. its like you can almost feel them, here them and see them when you sleep. i get that sometimes and i wonder if they are real. i wonder if they feel the same, and can see, here and feel me in their dreams too. if they are out ther, i wish that they would find me cuz i cant find them. but i have to get my head out of the clouds and face realaty. no matter how bad you want something, you dont always get it. but ill be ok and like always i still have hope and hope has me.
thank you for being my friend and for always being ther for me.
youve given me the hope i needed to be strong and to move on. and for that i thank you.
*love to all my friends from the bottom of my heart*
and hopefuly the next time we speak i wont be so sappy!
*late*
*ryan*