the letter i just sent erik. . .cuz i dont care who the hell sees it!
~erik quote, "that kid dosnt know when to let go. i never want to see or hear form him again."
you know what erik. . . .YOU GOT IT. . .cuz i only have to be told once.
those pages and the one fucking e-mail i sent you all had only one question with one intent and nothing more.. . . . . . . .to find out *do you or do you not want to be friends*
i guess i got my answer. . . .but i wish you would have had the balls enough to tell me yourself rather than have alan tell me. that was pretty fucked up.
i guess you were just liying when you told me that we were still friends and that you wanted to be friends. but why lie to me erik. . . .what was the fucking point of liying to me and makeing me beleive that? you could have just told me to fuck off then, ya know. you could have just told me then that you nolonger wanted to see me or talk to me again and i would have gone on my way. but no, you fucking liyed and toyed with me some more. why? did you find it funny or amusing that you still had some controll over me and my emotions?
" That kid dosnt know when to let go " what the fuck erik??? WHAT THE FUCK!! i just wanted to be friends just like you said you wanted to be. . . . . cuz for some fucking reason, part of me still cared about you and wanted you as a friend in my life. I NEVER. . . asked for anything more than that. so where the fuck do you get off saying that??
YOU. . . . Y~O~U ! not me, YOU were the one that inisheated the last time we had sex . . . . . . .remember? . .' the make up sex' you called it. . . . in wich you told me that you still loved me and thet we were always going to be friends. . .wich was back in, what. . end of augast, begining of september. . . so dont you fucking tell me about not letting go. so, was that all a lie too? were you just horny and you would say anything just to get in my pants.
what was i to you erik??? tell me. was i just a pice of ass to tide you over till jeff got home? just another noch on the pole? did you ever really intend to be in a real relationship with me? whats your excuse this time? go ahead and tell me another fucking lie.
and now i know that you never really cared, cuz if you did you would have never treated me the way you have. you would have never said the things you said. you would have been honest with me.
i changed my entire life around for you and dont you fucking say i didnt. did you ever once think about all the things i did for you and for us? DID YOU?
was i just a chalenge for you? a chalenge to see how much controll you could have and to see what you could make me do?
i did grow as a person as a result of being with you. you helped me to come out to my parents and to gain my indipendence and that im thankful for, but i paid an unbelevibly high price for something i would have done and learned on my own anway.
heh, even now i cant hate or be angry with you. how fucked up is that? all youve maniged to do was to make me cry one more time. but you know what? I GAREN-FUCKING-TEE THAT IT WILL BE THE LAST !
i loved you erik. I FUCKING LOVED YOU!
and that is something that ill never let you have the satisfaction of feeling from me again.
one day you will regret treating me and others the way you have. one day you will see what its like to be toyied and fucked with by someone you truly love. then and only then will you understad what you put me through.
i really do wish only the best for you and hope you have a good life.
you got your wish and i hope your happy with it, cuz i will never make any atemt to see or to speak to you again.
Never again yours,
~RyaN
you know what erik. . . .YOU GOT IT. . .cuz i only have to be told once.
those pages and the one fucking e-mail i sent you all had only one question with one intent and nothing more.. . . . . . . .to find out *do you or do you not want to be friends*
i guess i got my answer. . . .but i wish you would have had the balls enough to tell me yourself rather than have alan tell me. that was pretty fucked up.
i guess you were just liying when you told me that we were still friends and that you wanted to be friends. but why lie to me erik. . . .what was the fucking point of liying to me and makeing me beleive that? you could have just told me to fuck off then, ya know. you could have just told me then that you nolonger wanted to see me or talk to me again and i would have gone on my way. but no, you fucking liyed and toyed with me some more. why? did you find it funny or amusing that you still had some controll over me and my emotions?
" That kid dosnt know when to let go " what the fuck erik??? WHAT THE FUCK!! i just wanted to be friends just like you said you wanted to be. . . . . cuz for some fucking reason, part of me still cared about you and wanted you as a friend in my life. I NEVER. . . asked for anything more than that. so where the fuck do you get off saying that??
YOU. . . . Y~O~U ! not me, YOU were the one that inisheated the last time we had sex . . . . . . .remember? . .' the make up sex' you called it. . . . in wich you told me that you still loved me and thet we were always going to be friends. . .wich was back in, what. . end of augast, begining of september. . . so dont you fucking tell me about not letting go. so, was that all a lie too? were you just horny and you would say anything just to get in my pants.
what was i to you erik??? tell me. was i just a pice of ass to tide you over till jeff got home? just another noch on the pole? did you ever really intend to be in a real relationship with me? whats your excuse this time? go ahead and tell me another fucking lie.
and now i know that you never really cared, cuz if you did you would have never treated me the way you have. you would have never said the things you said. you would have been honest with me.
i changed my entire life around for you and dont you fucking say i didnt. did you ever once think about all the things i did for you and for us? DID YOU?
was i just a chalenge for you? a chalenge to see how much controll you could have and to see what you could make me do?
i did grow as a person as a result of being with you. you helped me to come out to my parents and to gain my indipendence and that im thankful for, but i paid an unbelevibly high price for something i would have done and learned on my own anway.
heh, even now i cant hate or be angry with you. how fucked up is that? all youve maniged to do was to make me cry one more time. but you know what? I GAREN-FUCKING-TEE THAT IT WILL BE THE LAST !
i loved you erik. I FUCKING LOVED YOU!
and that is something that ill never let you have the satisfaction of feeling from me again.
one day you will regret treating me and others the way you have. one day you will see what its like to be toyied and fucked with by someone you truly love. then and only then will you understad what you put me through.
i really do wish only the best for you and hope you have a good life.
you got your wish and i hope your happy with it, cuz i will never make any atemt to see or to speak to you again.
Never again yours,
~RyaN