today marks five months. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
but it feels so much longer with him gone. i miss him.
mothers day was such a sad day. i cant even imagen how bad it must have been for my mother. im the only child she has left and we dont get to see eachother very often. i wish we lived closer.
but at least we have grown closer in our bond.
so john finly grew up and asked her to marry him. she is so happy that he did and so am i. he makes her happy and she deserves all the happness in the world. they are getting married some time in august. i hope ill be back in time to see the wedding.
i wish we all could have spent more time together before all of this happend. it had been so long sence the last time we were all together. i feel bad about that. i really miss those times we had.
I wrote this for him.
The way I feel is hard to discribe.
Im not sure how I feel inside.
I guess I feel stuck, like I cant move.
Kind of like a marble stuck in a groove.
When you left, a part of me did too.
As you flew away it followed behind you.
That part of me is lost without you and I am afraid.
Oh god how I wished and prayed you had stayed.
But god has your sole and it will fly forever free.
But I still wish you were here with Mom and me.
We miss you so much and think of you everyday.
Not a day goes by that we dont wish god let you stay.
I know now that you are happy and in a better place.
When I think of you iI can almost see your smiling face.
Your shining now with beautiful wings. Your warm and content.
But god damn how fast our short time together was spent.
But I just have to remember the good times; the times we had fun.
All the times when we were little. All the times we played in the sun.
Like the time we caught frogs in the stream by the house
and the time that I cried when I got bit by your pet mouse.
Even the times that we faught are times I will chairsh.
I will always remember those times. I wont let our memories parish.
If I just remember all those things and chairsh them then your not really gone.
And always remember that you were a great man to many people. A great brother and son.
Just remember that we all love you, miss you and we always think of you.
And one day we will see eachother again and start over brand new.
I love you Cam.
Love,
us
humm. . . . . . . just felt i had to get that out i guess.
no need for any coments.
mothers day was such a sad day. i cant even imagen how bad it must have been for my mother. im the only child she has left and we dont get to see eachother very often. i wish we lived closer.
but at least we have grown closer in our bond.
so john finly grew up and asked her to marry him. she is so happy that he did and so am i. he makes her happy and she deserves all the happness in the world. they are getting married some time in august. i hope ill be back in time to see the wedding.
i wish we all could have spent more time together before all of this happend. it had been so long sence the last time we were all together. i feel bad about that. i really miss those times we had.
I wrote this for him.
The way I feel is hard to discribe.
Im not sure how I feel inside.
I guess I feel stuck, like I cant move.
Kind of like a marble stuck in a groove.
When you left, a part of me did too.
As you flew away it followed behind you.
That part of me is lost without you and I am afraid.
Oh god how I wished and prayed you had stayed.
But god has your sole and it will fly forever free.
But I still wish you were here with Mom and me.
We miss you so much and think of you everyday.
Not a day goes by that we dont wish god let you stay.
I know now that you are happy and in a better place.
When I think of you iI can almost see your smiling face.
Your shining now with beautiful wings. Your warm and content.
But god damn how fast our short time together was spent.
But I just have to remember the good times; the times we had fun.
All the times when we were little. All the times we played in the sun.
Like the time we caught frogs in the stream by the house
and the time that I cried when I got bit by your pet mouse.
Even the times that we faught are times I will chairsh.
I will always remember those times. I wont let our memories parish.
If I just remember all those things and chairsh them then your not really gone.
And always remember that you were a great man to many people. A great brother and son.
Just remember that we all love you, miss you and we always think of you.
And one day we will see eachother again and start over brand new.
I love you Cam.
Love,
us
humm. . . . . . . just felt i had to get that out i guess.
no need for any coments.