agaetis byrjun
the blog didn't work out
the many blogs didn't work out
i have spent my entire post-college life, exactly, looking for a voice on the internets.
a voice that wasn't this lj. because i felt like i should be more of a grown up, now that then i had grown up, and go where the grown ups go to write on the internets.
but old people don't lj because lj is where it all started. to be here means you were there at the beginning, the beginning of the revolution where every person had a virtual space to write shit in. of course we were all young so we wrote about silly things like "feelings" and "emotions". but that's the thing - lj is forever. it grows up with you. you grow up with it. i can see how my language and vocabulary have deteriorated. i can look back to time eras that in my head are off limits and see that i was actually having some fun during the great depression. i can remember that my wild mood swings between irrational paranoia and unjustified optimism is how i've always been. i can confirm that my music/movie/whatever tastes have always been the best. and i have written proof that i was rooting for obama back in august 07 - before it was cool. this stuff is worth keeping track of! as i leave the post-college era and enter the plain Adult era after a quarter century out of the womb, it is time to look back without prejudice and embrace the things that i left behind for immature reasons. and this is a small step in that direction, and actually probably more meaningful than i even know. i have a feeling, though.
i think it's the small text and wide spaces that do it for me, and of course, the now playing option. what's up with blogs and their narrow margins? they just want to fit in as many vertical ads as they can and that's the problem with blogging- you only do it for the money (for the fantasy of someday making money). lj is all about the heart. no one will ever pay you shit for this
the many blogs didn't work out
i have spent my entire post-college life, exactly, looking for a voice on the internets.
a voice that wasn't this lj. because i felt like i should be more of a grown up, now that then i had grown up, and go where the grown ups go to write on the internets.
but old people don't lj because lj is where it all started. to be here means you were there at the beginning, the beginning of the revolution where every person had a virtual space to write shit in. of course we were all young so we wrote about silly things like "feelings" and "emotions". but that's the thing - lj is forever. it grows up with you. you grow up with it. i can see how my language and vocabulary have deteriorated. i can look back to time eras that in my head are off limits and see that i was actually having some fun during the great depression. i can remember that my wild mood swings between irrational paranoia and unjustified optimism is how i've always been. i can confirm that my music/movie/whatever tastes have always been the best. and i have written proof that i was rooting for obama back in august 07 - before it was cool. this stuff is worth keeping track of! as i leave the post-college era and enter the plain Adult era after a quarter century out of the womb, it is time to look back without prejudice and embrace the things that i left behind for immature reasons. and this is a small step in that direction, and actually probably more meaningful than i even know. i have a feeling, though.
i think it's the small text and wide spaces that do it for me, and of course, the now playing option. what's up with blogs and their narrow margins? they just want to fit in as many vertical ads as they can and that's the problem with blogging- you only do it for the money (for the fantasy of someday making money). lj is all about the heart. no one will ever pay you shit for this