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It's been a while, this I was expecting. What I wasn't expecting was how much things have changed. I did a lot of things I shouldn't have last year, and while they weren't exactly helpful I did end up benefiting from the end results. I feel a lot older than I am, and it's starting to show on the outside. From work to Bloomsburg, people keep telling me I look about 24-25. Go figure... Well, what else has happened... I had another falling out with Rosie, but it looks like this time it's for real. We haven't spoken in about a week now, and while I can't say I'm exactly happy I am at peace with myself. Well, that and bored. It's funny how many people, how many opportunities you'll willingly throw away in the name of love. Well, now I'm paying for it. I now have a total of 2 people that I talk to regularly at Bloomsburg, and even those friendships I've managed to complicate. Sometimes I just can't help but wonder if maybe I really do need to be medicated. Well, let me rephrase that... I wonder if I need to be medicated to be happy. All I did this weekend was overreact, sit around, make up things for myself to do, and put off my studies until well, I haven't touched my books yet. All I do is sit, and think about my life... how I ended up like this. I've started working out and touching up on my TaeKwonDo again because I feel weak, and I look it. My diet sucks, and my health is failing. These days I only really have 1 meal a day. It's partially because I'm too poor to afford food, and because I'm too lazy to walk all the way up to campus and use my meal plan. I wonder what I'll be like when I get out of college, will I still have these same horrible habits? Christ... my room looks like shit, and I still haven't washed my clothes. Well folks, it looks like Tom's going to be breaking out the fabreeze tomorrow! Oh well, I'm done with this. Enjoy my ramblings.