yea
so i know i suck at life, hardcore, and i take full responsibility for that. and it is hard for me to be a good friend because i just have a lot of issues that i am trying to deal with. i am trying to answer the phone now, but calling back is really another hurdle altogether... the moral here is that a week from today it is my birthday and i know that no one, besides dan, is going to care whatsoever and that makes me sad. my mom basically just told me that i am '24 years old and need to grow up.' and that i have 'a boyfriend to do that stupid shit.' she has 'too much going on to worry about me' so whatever. i really do not expect anything, or that is what i need to tell myself to try and make it through. -sigh-