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i dont update anymore..but i think i might start to more. so a bunch of shit has happened lately.
on thursday i slept over morgan's house with samantha..we went in morgan's hot tub :D. then on friday morning we drove to Leesburg to go to the outlet malls. i got a bunch of stuff from old navy that all matched? woaahh. i got some stuff from claire's and pacsun and we all got these amazingly cool cups. i got home around 4 and went over plans with emily and annie..but they fell through. i was going to go to natalies at like..10 with jason..but there was no one to pick me up & my brother wouldn't let me walk home. so i ended up being bored for the night. on saturday i had a game in the morning. we had our soccer party at Bowl America. It was fun. after the party i went home with amy and haley to Haley's house. turns out she lives near me, awesome. we walked up to kings park shopping center to cvs to buy a ball? some guys ''hollered at us'' at caribou coffee..and they were like 18 and ghetto-wannabes, creepy. we went to Giant and bought like 294699 things of candy and then walked back to haley's house. we watched not another teen movie and the breakfast club, then went outside out onto the humungous porch of her backyard. it was like 10:30 and we were talking about random things..but it made me feel better about stuff and get stuff out. we went back in at like 11 and watched Thirteen. we went up to her room and talked more then fell asleep around 2 or something. sunday i went to the Mamma Mia play for girl scouts..sat next to lindsey. ahh..good times :D. yesterday, in 90º weather, i had a soccer game. you can just imagine how fun that was. it felt like my face was melting off.
alrigghttttt. so the last day of school im leaving for New York for two weeks. im going to see my cousin Molly again who i have missed and havent seen since..maybe 5th grade. I'm going to be meeting 24645656 cousins that i've never met before. god my family's huge. later this summer, im going to Massanutten for a week with amy and her family. sweeeettt. and im going to a soccer camp.
you've changed. i dont like it. none of us do. you're so different now..it's like i dont even know you. suddenly you act bitchy to me and it's only to me. you ignore me and go off with someone else when i attempt to make good conversation with you. i'm sick of it. you dont invite me over anymore because you always think i have ''other plans'' with my ''other group''..and by that you mean jason, natalie, and morgan. you could atleast TRY to work with me on restoring our friendship. why are you so different now? whenever our little ''circle of 4'' tries to hang out, it's not as fun anymore. that spark and fun that we all used to have is gone. and it's because of you. when it's just the rest of us, it's a blast, but when you're there, you change everything. you won't stop texting on your cell phone or stop talking about how ugly and fat you are. you are one of the most gorgeous people i have ever seen and you have an amazing body, so shut up. i still love you, and i ALWAYS will. but i dont think you love me anymore. i dont think you want to be my best friend anymore. i dont think im yours. i dont think we're best friends at all anymore.
i just need a hug, and to cry.
on thursday i slept over morgan's house with samantha..we went in morgan's hot tub :D. then on friday morning we drove to Leesburg to go to the outlet malls. i got a bunch of stuff from old navy that all matched? woaahh. i got some stuff from claire's and pacsun and we all got these amazingly cool cups. i got home around 4 and went over plans with emily and annie..but they fell through. i was going to go to natalies at like..10 with jason..but there was no one to pick me up & my brother wouldn't let me walk home. so i ended up being bored for the night. on saturday i had a game in the morning. we had our soccer party at Bowl America. It was fun. after the party i went home with amy and haley to Haley's house. turns out she lives near me, awesome. we walked up to kings park shopping center to cvs to buy a ball? some guys ''hollered at us'' at caribou coffee..and they were like 18 and ghetto-wannabes, creepy. we went to Giant and bought like 294699 things of candy and then walked back to haley's house. we watched not another teen movie and the breakfast club, then went outside out onto the humungous porch of her backyard. it was like 10:30 and we were talking about random things..but it made me feel better about stuff and get stuff out. we went back in at like 11 and watched Thirteen. we went up to her room and talked more then fell asleep around 2 or something. sunday i went to the Mamma Mia play for girl scouts..sat next to lindsey. ahh..good times :D. yesterday, in 90º weather, i had a soccer game. you can just imagine how fun that was. it felt like my face was melting off.
alrigghttttt. so the last day of school im leaving for New York for two weeks. im going to see my cousin Molly again who i have missed and havent seen since..maybe 5th grade. I'm going to be meeting 24645656 cousins that i've never met before. god my family's huge. later this summer, im going to Massanutten for a week with amy and her family. sweeeettt. and im going to a soccer camp.
you've changed. i dont like it. none of us do. you're so different now..it's like i dont even know you. suddenly you act bitchy to me and it's only to me. you ignore me and go off with someone else when i attempt to make good conversation with you. i'm sick of it. you dont invite me over anymore because you always think i have ''other plans'' with my ''other group''..and by that you mean jason, natalie, and morgan. you could atleast TRY to work with me on restoring our friendship. why are you so different now? whenever our little ''circle of 4'' tries to hang out, it's not as fun anymore. that spark and fun that we all used to have is gone. and it's because of you. when it's just the rest of us, it's a blast, but when you're there, you change everything. you won't stop texting on your cell phone or stop talking about how ugly and fat you are. you are one of the most gorgeous people i have ever seen and you have an amazing body, so shut up. i still love you, and i ALWAYS will. but i dont think you love me anymore. i dont think you want to be my best friend anymore. i dont think im yours. i dont think we're best friends at all anymore.
i just need a hug, and to cry.