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For those of you that don't know, I've pretty much sworn off guys for my Senior year. I'm gonna try really hard to stick to that, and focus on God, church, school, and Band, in that order. Also, I don't think I've updated since I broke up with David on Friday night. I went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with a lot of the same people that went to Camp that night, and after that we went to the mall. David called me, I told him where I was, and he told me that he'd come up there, if I wanted him to, so I told him okay, since I was planning to do it at the mall sometime anyway. So to say the least, I was freaking out. I felt horrible, b'cuz I didn't wanna be with him, but at the same time I didn't wanna hurt him. He hasn't had a girlfriend before me in 3 years, and I didn't wanna shake his faith in the female species as a whole. Plus, I don't think I've ever really been the one to do the breaking up before, except for Brandon, but he's a stalker, so he doesn't count. :p But anyway, he got there, and I had no idea what to say, but at the same time, I knew what I had to do, so I just kinda went with it, I guess. I told him that at Camp, I realized that I need to focus on God and get the distractions out of my life. And he basically understood, and took it real well. I felt horrible, but it made me feel better that he took it well. So yeah, I don't really want another boyfriend, but at the same time, I do. I want someone to call my own, and to bring me flowers occasionally like Sam did, and to just have the whole boyfriend/girlfriend deal with that loves God as much as I do and would be able to help me when I'm having trouble in my Christian walk. To help me stay changed and not go back to the way I was. I guess that I'll just have to wait though, b'cuz God and college definitely are more important.
I think I'm gonna focus on going to Southeastern more than FSU. I was talking to God the other night, and I'm pretty sure that's where He wants me to go. The only reason I'm not 100% sure is that I guess I had never really let Him speak, since He prolly couldn't get a word in edgewise. I talk a lot. I've gotten over it. Anyway, Jeremy had told me that he thought I should go to Southeastern too, since I would meet the guy of my dreams there, and God confirmed that. He told me that He did want me to go to Southeastern, and that Jeremy was absolutely right, I would meet the guy I've been dreaming about there. So I'm gonna look into it, but I have no idea what I would do down there. I wanna be a Professional Musician, as most of you know, and they're not a school of music. I don't know. I guess I just have to trust God. I still have another year of High School, so I don't have to worry too much just yet. Hopefully by the time I need to fill out applications, God will let me have a little more insight. If that's what He wants! Whatever works.
Anyway, I thikn I'm about done, so I'm gonna go work on myspace. The end!
I think I'm gonna focus on going to Southeastern more than FSU. I was talking to God the other night, and I'm pretty sure that's where He wants me to go. The only reason I'm not 100% sure is that I guess I had never really let Him speak, since He prolly couldn't get a word in edgewise. I talk a lot. I've gotten over it. Anyway, Jeremy had told me that he thought I should go to Southeastern too, since I would meet the guy of my dreams there, and God confirmed that. He told me that He did want me to go to Southeastern, and that Jeremy was absolutely right, I would meet the guy I've been dreaming about there. So I'm gonna look into it, but I have no idea what I would do down there. I wanna be a Professional Musician, as most of you know, and they're not a school of music. I don't know. I guess I just have to trust God. I still have another year of High School, so I don't have to worry too much just yet. Hopefully by the time I need to fill out applications, God will let me have a little more insight. If that's what He wants! Whatever works.
Anyway, I thikn I'm about done, so I'm gonna go work on myspace. The end!