Changing
Have you ever made a promise to someone? Or both of you made promises to each other that no matter what your friendship would never be changed by circumstances or the appearance of significant others? i made that promise to someone, and she to me; i always believed we'd abide by it. Now i'm friends, very good friends with her boyfriend; but i think there is a part of me that resents him. i feel like he's stealing my best friend; i feel kind of lost, kind of abandoned - i feel kind of like i got left behind for something better. i hate it. i've noticed a lot lately i am excluded from so many things. Like tonight:
runawaymemory: hey
runawaymemory: what's up?
Malys13: nm here, just waitin for will
runawaymemory: cool
Malys13: yea
Malys13: we're goin to applebees with erin nick and adam
Malys13: and then either all of us or just me will and adam are goin to hippos
runawaymemory: oh i see...
i don't understand what happened... Lately it's been like i don't exist anymore, or at least my significance in her life has decreased greatly. No one told me anything was going on, no one called me this weekend; she's always with him, and you know what? It really hurts. i'm not jealous of him by any means, i just don't like the way things are changing. We swore we would never let a guy come between us; he has. He really has. Nothing is the same now; i wish things could go back to the way they were, and at the same time i don't because she deserves to be happy more than anyone in this world. i hate changes. i hate this. i'm going to go cry now.
runawaymemory: hey
runawaymemory: what's up?
Malys13: nm here, just waitin for will
runawaymemory: cool
Malys13: yea
Malys13: we're goin to applebees with erin nick and adam
Malys13: and then either all of us or just me will and adam are goin to hippos
runawaymemory: oh i see...
i don't understand what happened... Lately it's been like i don't exist anymore, or at least my significance in her life has decreased greatly. No one told me anything was going on, no one called me this weekend; she's always with him, and you know what? It really hurts. i'm not jealous of him by any means, i just don't like the way things are changing. We swore we would never let a guy come between us; he has. He really has. Nothing is the same now; i wish things could go back to the way they were, and at the same time i don't because she deserves to be happy more than anyone in this world. i hate changes. i hate this. i'm going to go cry now.