10-Titles challenge | Counting thoughts
Title: Counting thoughts
Author: orla-dark
Beta: alligator138
Character/Pairing/Group: Ryan Wolfe\Calleigh Duquesne
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG
Summary: Ryan’s thoughts about Calleigh.
Disclaimer: They all mine *waking up* Oh, no, still not mine :(
Warning: First fic on English ever.
A/N: I should say big thank you to my beta alligator138, so THANK YOU :)
Written for the 10_titles challenge.
How many times per day do I think about her? I try to count, but it's too many thoughts for that. She is my angel, she is all I need, but she doesn’t need me.
I want her to give that wonderful smile to me, but it's for Jake. I want her to regret that she’s not with me, but with him. But she’d rather be with Eric. She’s worth the best. Too bad it's not me.
“Are you finished?” she asks, and I can't turn around and look at her, because she can read all my thoughts on my face. "Calm down," I say to myself and turn around. I’m a good actor, so no one has found out what I feel about her. I can be an awful liar, but I hide all my feelings perfectly, including my feelings about her.
“Yeah, I think we can go back to the lab.” I’m smiling, and she is smiling back. Maybe it's just my imagination, but I think her smile for me is special. Like she had one smile for Jake, another smile for Eric and this sweet smile for me. And this smile gives me hope that someday I might get my chance to be with her and make her happy.
We are working shoulder by shoulder today. Usually I work with Natalia and Calleigh works with Eric, but not today. I'm joking, and she laughs. I can see how our work is affecting her and how she needs to relax. I’m glad that I can help with that.
“It was a rough day, wasn’t it?” she asks, and I agree with her. But I regret that this day is over. I could work with her forever and never get tired.
It doesn’t matter how many times I think about her, one, two or a million thoughts. But my last thought before I go to sleep is the hope that someday I will wake up and she will be here with me. I'm not naïve - I know if you love someone you should prove it. Nothing in life will happen only because you dream about it. You ask me why I still don’t make a move? She already has two men in her life and she can’t choose between them. I see how difficult this situation is for her, I see how hard it is for her to make the decision. I can’t make any move right now - her life is complicated enough. I’ll just make things worse if I was in the picture too. Or maybe I’m just afraid... I’m afraid she might say no.
Coward, is my last thought before I fall asleep. I don’t count that, because it's not about her.
FIN
Author: orla-dark
Beta: alligator138
Character/Pairing/Group: Ryan Wolfe\Calleigh Duquesne
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG
Summary: Ryan’s thoughts about Calleigh.
Disclaimer: They all mine *waking up* Oh, no, still not mine :(
Warning: First fic on English ever.
A/N: I should say big thank you to my beta alligator138, so THANK YOU :)
Written for the 10_titles challenge.
How many times per day do I think about her? I try to count, but it's too many thoughts for that. She is my angel, she is all I need, but she doesn’t need me.
I want her to give that wonderful smile to me, but it's for Jake. I want her to regret that she’s not with me, but with him. But she’d rather be with Eric. She’s worth the best. Too bad it's not me.
“Are you finished?” she asks, and I can't turn around and look at her, because she can read all my thoughts on my face. "Calm down," I say to myself and turn around. I’m a good actor, so no one has found out what I feel about her. I can be an awful liar, but I hide all my feelings perfectly, including my feelings about her.
“Yeah, I think we can go back to the lab.” I’m smiling, and she is smiling back. Maybe it's just my imagination, but I think her smile for me is special. Like she had one smile for Jake, another smile for Eric and this sweet smile for me. And this smile gives me hope that someday I might get my chance to be with her and make her happy.
We are working shoulder by shoulder today. Usually I work with Natalia and Calleigh works with Eric, but not today. I'm joking, and she laughs. I can see how our work is affecting her and how she needs to relax. I’m glad that I can help with that.
“It was a rough day, wasn’t it?” she asks, and I agree with her. But I regret that this day is over. I could work with her forever and never get tired.
It doesn’t matter how many times I think about her, one, two or a million thoughts. But my last thought before I go to sleep is the hope that someday I will wake up and she will be here with me. I'm not naïve - I know if you love someone you should prove it. Nothing in life will happen only because you dream about it. You ask me why I still don’t make a move? She already has two men in her life and she can’t choose between them. I see how difficult this situation is for her, I see how hard it is for her to make the decision. I can’t make any move right now - her life is complicated enough. I’ll just make things worse if I was in the picture too. Or maybe I’m just afraid... I’m afraid she might say no.
Coward, is my last thought before I fall asleep. I don’t count that, because it's not about her.
FIN