Yeah, I'm definitely Jackass Joey :-p
Ok, since this is my journal I'm allowed to write and complain about whatever I want, right? Right! :-) Well, as some of you know I've been dealing with my fair share of drama lately and it really sucks. Especially in retrospect when I see what I did to cause all of this and that there were definitely things I could've done differently too.
I was most definitely a dumb ass! :-p But probably not for the reasons that most of you think. I don't really regret anything that I did because whether or not I went about it the right way it was definitely what needed to be done. However, I regret how it all went down. Specifically I regret how stupid I was dealing with everything. I let things get blown way out of proportion and the whole situation got out of control.
Even when I thought I had everything figured out and settled down I realized I was still being a dumbass because I was trying way too hard to fix things. But they weren't always the right things to be fixed. And by trying so hard and putting so much into fixing things I only succeeded in further messing things up. Ah, such is my luck, huh? :-p
Well, I was talking to a good friend from back home the other day and he was telling me about a similar situation he had been through, only in the end he was the good guy while I was the jackass. :-) Well, we came to the conclusion that I was a jackass because I was trying to be too nice and make everybody happy (kinda funny, huh?). But it's true! If I hadn't been so worried about people getting upset or being hurt then there wouldn't have been so much drama and they wouldn't have been so upset or hurt.
What it came down to was that we both realized we can't make everybody happy all the time and that we need to focus on looking out for ourselves first of all. So, that's what I've decided to do. I'm gonna try and start this whole thing over again from the beginning, but this time I'm going to do it the right way and focus on watching out for myself and not worrying so much about keeping everybody else happy.
I know that it probably sounds kinda bad, but honestly it's something that I've never actually tried. Plus, if I had done that from the start I wouldn't have had to deal with all this drama. Silly Joey is so stupid sometimes, huh? :-p
Ok, well I'll explain more in a later entry. This one is long enough anyways. Catch you skaters later! :-)
I was most definitely a dumb ass! :-p But probably not for the reasons that most of you think. I don't really regret anything that I did because whether or not I went about it the right way it was definitely what needed to be done. However, I regret how it all went down. Specifically I regret how stupid I was dealing with everything. I let things get blown way out of proportion and the whole situation got out of control.
Even when I thought I had everything figured out and settled down I realized I was still being a dumbass because I was trying way too hard to fix things. But they weren't always the right things to be fixed. And by trying so hard and putting so much into fixing things I only succeeded in further messing things up. Ah, such is my luck, huh? :-p
Well, I was talking to a good friend from back home the other day and he was telling me about a similar situation he had been through, only in the end he was the good guy while I was the jackass. :-) Well, we came to the conclusion that I was a jackass because I was trying to be too nice and make everybody happy (kinda funny, huh?). But it's true! If I hadn't been so worried about people getting upset or being hurt then there wouldn't have been so much drama and they wouldn't have been so upset or hurt.
What it came down to was that we both realized we can't make everybody happy all the time and that we need to focus on looking out for ourselves first of all. So, that's what I've decided to do. I'm gonna try and start this whole thing over again from the beginning, but this time I'm going to do it the right way and focus on watching out for myself and not worrying so much about keeping everybody else happy.
I know that it probably sounds kinda bad, but honestly it's something that I've never actually tried. Plus, if I had done that from the start I wouldn't have had to deal with all this drama. Silly Joey is so stupid sometimes, huh? :-p
Ok, well I'll explain more in a later entry. This one is long enough anyways. Catch you skaters later! :-)