Conflict of Interests.
((The page begins with a double column of alchemical...technical mumbo-jumbo. Beneath that, however, is what seems to have become a personal entry. ))
Fel. Fel. Fel, FELLING FEL. ((The curses become dirtier and more imaginative, and go on for about two lines. )) This isn't supposed to happen.
This is the first time I can ever recall finding my duties and my faith so at odds - not since learning of the prince's betrayal. Fel. What in the Nether do they think they're playing at?! Do they think it won't be a negligible matter to check registries for matching names? Do they think we're blind enough not to see where stories contradict each other?
What are they playing at? ((Here the pen seems to have rested for a moment in thought.))
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There's a certain honesty to that curiosity, though, that makes me second-guess. How ignorant was I when I returned from that wild goose chase in Kul Tiras? How much catching up did Thare have to do when he made it back to the civilised world? Mustn't jump to conclusions.
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My gut says hunt, kill, deal with the consequences. My brain tells me no that's stupid Fordring will personally kick your ass if you're wrong. By the same token the Queen will personally kick my ass if I'm right and do nothing.
FEL. The decision to ki It should be easy to Thrall himself is playing a similar game. Taken heat for it of course, but he's wise enough to know what he's Doing. ((Again the ink pools from a pensive instant of hesitation.)) Respect. Tenacity. Compassion. That's what Father Lesiarch would remind me of, if he were here. The greatest of these is Compassion. Mustn't jump to conclusions. Must focus, must maintain discipline.
Mustn't jump to conclusions.
What would he tell me?
Do not injustice to another. Defend the weak and innocent. Let truth and honour always guide you.
He would counsel patience. An open mind. If I'm just being paranoid here these are all but lost souls in need of aid; the Dark Lady's Compassion and that of the Light both demand that I offer what I can. And if I'm correct...perhaps I can change a few minds about those they've been brainwashed into believing are monsters. Not that it's going to do a fel of a lot to stem the tides when they c what the FEL AM I SAYING, I'm looking forward to a damned honest-to-Light war to put an end to this petty back-and-forth crap, and the more allies we can win before that happens, the better.
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Pragmatism. She would be proud.
I still wish the good Father was here so I could know for sure which is the right thing to do. He always seemed to have the answers that I could never reach on my own.