Denial
In the interest of confidentiality, no names, but...I found out recently that someone I know was diagnosed with lung cancer. (so as to not create a panic, it is NOT any of the 3 of you I love the most nor myself.) Just someone I know. And it's totally made me think, you know? About how I know I live in a certain amount of denial about these things. Like I keep telling myself that cancer doesn't run in my family, so I won't get it. Or I'm fairly healthy and I feel okay, so I don't have it. I'm really, exceptionally bad, but I don't get my "check ups" like at all. Maybe a couple of times in Albuquerque but not since I moved here 2 1/2 years ago. And I've always had this, albeit mixed up, theory that it seems that people who don't know they have cancer are fine. It's when they actually find out they have cancer that they seem to go downhill rapidly. So it's kinda like a no news is good news type thing. And don't get me started on my views about medication, medical procedures, etc.
This is totally making me a little nervous and concerned. Not just about cancer, but about other things. I'm starting to get really paranoid about Diabetes. My paternal grandfather had it and even went blind from it. And since my dad is like practically the last living descendent, I don't know if it really "runs" in the family, because everyone else died prematurely (Tuberculosis, murder). I try not to think about that either. Although I've started making an effort of cutting down on the sugar. And you know my relationship with chocolate, so you know it's serious.
I try to think about what kind of person I would be if I had cancer. Would I be one of those shocked into doing everything possible and be a real fighter or would I just kinda give up and be depressed about it. I seriously have no idea. And I also think that while I do have health insurance, I, nor any of my family, have the money to fight something like that were it to become a concern. So what happens? Would we not get the best care? Would get the care and be in debt because of it? It just all sucks so bad.
And on a side note, you know I don't keep up with the news, so if there's more to the story than what I read, I don't know about it. But I read about that kid who wanted to stop the chemo and try alternative methods and it had to go to court. WTF?? It's his body! Why force him to go through more pain and agony if he doesn't want to? I know doctors have a responsibility to do everything possible for a person, but they shouldn't be able to force you to do something you don't want to do. I'm so glad that he won that suit and can now deal with this the way he wants. And I also hope that it is successful for him.
I guess that's all. Sorry to be so morose. Have a happy weekend everybody!!! I'm out.
This is totally making me a little nervous and concerned. Not just about cancer, but about other things. I'm starting to get really paranoid about Diabetes. My paternal grandfather had it and even went blind from it. And since my dad is like practically the last living descendent, I don't know if it really "runs" in the family, because everyone else died prematurely (Tuberculosis, murder). I try not to think about that either. Although I've started making an effort of cutting down on the sugar. And you know my relationship with chocolate, so you know it's serious.
I try to think about what kind of person I would be if I had cancer. Would I be one of those shocked into doing everything possible and be a real fighter or would I just kinda give up and be depressed about it. I seriously have no idea. And I also think that while I do have health insurance, I, nor any of my family, have the money to fight something like that were it to become a concern. So what happens? Would we not get the best care? Would get the care and be in debt because of it? It just all sucks so bad.
And on a side note, you know I don't keep up with the news, so if there's more to the story than what I read, I don't know about it. But I read about that kid who wanted to stop the chemo and try alternative methods and it had to go to court. WTF?? It's his body! Why force him to go through more pain and agony if he doesn't want to? I know doctors have a responsibility to do everything possible for a person, but they shouldn't be able to force you to do something you don't want to do. I'm so glad that he won that suit and can now deal with this the way he wants. And I also hope that it is successful for him.
I guess that's all. Sorry to be so morose. Have a happy weekend everybody!!! I'm out.