And you may ask yourself . . .
So yesterday, in an attempt to relax and recuperate, I stayed in bed all day and watched movies while Erick was off chopping wood up at the mountain. I watched a documentary called "The Human Experience," about a group of guys who decide to have a bunch of different "adventures" to see what life is really all about. They start off by seeing what's it's like to be homeless in February on the streets of New York City. Then they go to Peru and volunteer at a home for sick orphans. Finally, they visit a leper colony in Ghana.
I look around, and I'm sitting on a brand new bed that's so comfortable that it's like a little slice of heaven. I'm using my fairly new laptop to create a budget to decide what to do with the extra money I'm making. And I live comfortably in my little apartment that I can easily afford on just one income. And I live with a husband whom I've decided that I cannot live without. And I can't help but think to myself . . . what bourgeois problems I have.
"My wallet is too small for my fifties and my diamond shoes are too tight!" - Chandler, on Friends
(Friends has the perfect quote for everything.)
Anyway, I feel a lot better. Whatever happens with this job - I'm going to keep working at it, but I'm going to try to keep more emotional distance. I cannot control what other people do, nor can I control how they feel. I'm just going to do the best I can and not let the rest get me down. Not. Worth. It.
I look around, and I'm sitting on a brand new bed that's so comfortable that it's like a little slice of heaven. I'm using my fairly new laptop to create a budget to decide what to do with the extra money I'm making. And I live comfortably in my little apartment that I can easily afford on just one income. And I live with a husband whom I've decided that I cannot live without. And I can't help but think to myself . . . what bourgeois problems I have.
"My wallet is too small for my fifties and my diamond shoes are too tight!" - Chandler, on Friends
(Friends has the perfect quote for everything.)
Anyway, I feel a lot better. Whatever happens with this job - I'm going to keep working at it, but I'm going to try to keep more emotional distance. I cannot control what other people do, nor can I control how they feel. I'm just going to do the best I can and not let the rest get me down. Not. Worth. It.