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I have new hair, it seems I always have new hair. Here are some pictures I took of it yesterday because I had nothing else to do (I stayed home, due to cramps, and such)
Rep'n TopCOW and here you can see the back of my head, because this photo needed SO much explanation
I love this sexy boa
Hmm... my finger really DOES smell like Janet's vagina! (Thank ANYONE if they get that)
I wonder how many people actually read this. I know Chrissy and Alyssa and Katelyn probably and maybe Nathan but other than that, hrm. I don't really advertise my online journals much anymore. I have a VF account now, GOD KNOWS WHY, because I usually don't like that sort of thing, but I just feel the need to infiltrate every aspect of the internet with a non-paid for user account. I'm probably just updating on this one because this computer at school blocks myspace and xanga.
Anyway.
I feel a lot better about myself lately. About the clothes I wear and the music I listen to and to a great extent how I actually look. Maybe that's just the part of having a boyfriend that I've never really noticed before, but when someone else finds you attractive you do too. Of course, he has to live far away and it's kind of hard to get the physical satisfaction that comes with having a boyfriend... buttttt... I wouldn't give it up for anything. He is great and I can actually talk to him and be the complete nerd that I am and not sugarcoat ANYTHING and he's okay with that? For god's sake, I typed out the first 15 minutes of dialogue of the Lion King to his away message and I'm not a loser to him. At least not yet. Sometimes I feel like an overbearing bitch when I'm talking to him though. I have to try to stop that. Mmyez.
I had a dream that was based on reality last night. So I woke up and I was happy and energetic because it wasn't like I had just woken up, it was like me waking up was a continuation of my dream. So I was all excited and my mom called me down for breakfast and I go "OKAYYY!YY!Y!!" in a sing song voice. But then I had to get out of bed which woke me up and is always the hardest part of my day.
I feel very nice lately. Nice and scary and frightening at the same time. I'll freak out during lunch and I won't care about random people's useless opinions anymore. I'll say what's on my mind more but I'll still be nice to just about anyone. I had a weird urge to sit in the last seat of the bus the other day so I did. Black people don't scare me anymore, haha. I mean, I'm a white girl, but I'm a fucking crazy white girl with purple hair now. I think if I had aviator goggles and a utility belt (and more than 2 pairs of pants) my crazy outfit would be complete. That's what I'm going to ask for for my birthday! Rah! I feel a lot better about myself lately. Maybe it IS the whole boyfriend thing. Maybe it's just a state of mind! Maybe it's just because I realize more and more each day that I'm still young and not getting any older and I could die at any minute so I might as well be fucking happy about my life.
I really want to see Saw 2 today. I heard it's hellagood. And I want to go with Chrissy, because I can't even remember the last time we hung out. Maybe it was Emily Rose. That would be sad ;_;. And she's my fren and I need her and we're going to be going away to college and I'mma miss her like hell. Alyssa, I called you yesterday and left a message on your koala-phone, I hope you get it and call me back cause I wanna talk to you.
Lalalalala, so my bipolarness is becoming less apparent, or at least, more towards the really fucking happy side. There are still some things about me which I would like to change, but I'm just going to gradually pick at it. Sweet.
"Rape isn't funny. Unless you're raping a clown."
- Some random quote I found off of Nathan's VF thing, it made me laugh :D
Rep'n TopCOW and here you can see the back of my head, because this photo needed SO much explanation
I love this sexy boa
Hmm... my finger really DOES smell like Janet's vagina! (Thank ANYONE if they get that)
I wonder how many people actually read this. I know Chrissy and Alyssa and Katelyn probably and maybe Nathan but other than that, hrm. I don't really advertise my online journals much anymore. I have a VF account now, GOD KNOWS WHY, because I usually don't like that sort of thing, but I just feel the need to infiltrate every aspect of the internet with a non-paid for user account. I'm probably just updating on this one because this computer at school blocks myspace and xanga.
Anyway.
I feel a lot better about myself lately. About the clothes I wear and the music I listen to and to a great extent how I actually look. Maybe that's just the part of having a boyfriend that I've never really noticed before, but when someone else finds you attractive you do too. Of course, he has to live far away and it's kind of hard to get the physical satisfaction that comes with having a boyfriend... buttttt... I wouldn't give it up for anything. He is great and I can actually talk to him and be the complete nerd that I am and not sugarcoat ANYTHING and he's okay with that? For god's sake, I typed out the first 15 minutes of dialogue of the Lion King to his away message and I'm not a loser to him. At least not yet. Sometimes I feel like an overbearing bitch when I'm talking to him though. I have to try to stop that. Mmyez.
I had a dream that was based on reality last night. So I woke up and I was happy and energetic because it wasn't like I had just woken up, it was like me waking up was a continuation of my dream. So I was all excited and my mom called me down for breakfast and I go "OKAYYY!YY!Y!!" in a sing song voice. But then I had to get out of bed which woke me up and is always the hardest part of my day.
I feel very nice lately. Nice and scary and frightening at the same time. I'll freak out during lunch and I won't care about random people's useless opinions anymore. I'll say what's on my mind more but I'll still be nice to just about anyone. I had a weird urge to sit in the last seat of the bus the other day so I did. Black people don't scare me anymore, haha. I mean, I'm a white girl, but I'm a fucking crazy white girl with purple hair now. I think if I had aviator goggles and a utility belt (and more than 2 pairs of pants) my crazy outfit would be complete. That's what I'm going to ask for for my birthday! Rah! I feel a lot better about myself lately. Maybe it IS the whole boyfriend thing. Maybe it's just a state of mind! Maybe it's just because I realize more and more each day that I'm still young and not getting any older and I could die at any minute so I might as well be fucking happy about my life.
I really want to see Saw 2 today. I heard it's hellagood. And I want to go with Chrissy, because I can't even remember the last time we hung out. Maybe it was Emily Rose. That would be sad ;_;. And she's my fren and I need her and we're going to be going away to college and I'mma miss her like hell. Alyssa, I called you yesterday and left a message on your koala-phone, I hope you get it and call me back cause I wanna talk to you.
Lalalalala, so my bipolarness is becoming less apparent, or at least, more towards the really fucking happy side. There are still some things about me which I would like to change, but I'm just going to gradually pick at it. Sweet.
"Rape isn't funny. Unless you're raping a clown."
- Some random quote I found off of Nathan's VF thing, it made me laugh :D