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whenever i was with or around friends i always tended to act weird as people say.
but since no ones really around anymore i always wondered how i am with myself.
honestly. I've been feeling like a blank empty space with no real personality on my own. like my friends just brought out a certain joy out of me most of the time that made me act the way i did.
but due to working and having a serious/professional face on most of the time i think has bled into my "personality".
I'm pretty sure that's why I've been so pissy and down as of late.
cause to me it doesn't feel right.
it is personally not something i enjoy. and it is personally something i wish i could change. not time yet tho it seems like.
my dad keeps telling me I'll be in Austin soon. I'm just hoping this shit doesn't feel permanent.
i dislike permanent things. i dislike things that close that open "what if feeling".
goddamnit.
but since no ones really around anymore i always wondered how i am with myself.
honestly. I've been feeling like a blank empty space with no real personality on my own. like my friends just brought out a certain joy out of me most of the time that made me act the way i did.
but due to working and having a serious/professional face on most of the time i think has bled into my "personality".
I'm pretty sure that's why I've been so pissy and down as of late.
cause to me it doesn't feel right.
it is personally not something i enjoy. and it is personally something i wish i could change. not time yet tho it seems like.
my dad keeps telling me I'll be in Austin soon. I'm just hoping this shit doesn't feel permanent.
i dislike permanent things. i dislike things that close that open "what if feeling".
goddamnit.