random spoutings...will somebody love me?
well tonite was a good night. i cleaned my room when i got home...did my exercises like i will be doing everyday now. :) i also started my college essay for St. John's in NY. i will finish in the morning...what else did i do? hmm..i cleaned my closet out and threw away a lot of the trash i was hoarding..lol.now im just writing here...wondering...will i ever find love? it bothers me to think about it sometimes..i mean here in NJ i havent found one person that i like that has the same feelings about me. is there something wrong with me? do i have a bad smell? the on girl i liked decided she didnt like me so she went out with someone else..the other girl i think is beautiful wont even give me the time of day..i wish she would. i know im not nearly the most attractive guy or anything, but i dont think im that bad... i just wish i could find someone that liked me for me. i dont know..im just rambling. back to the things i did today...i found 3 shirts that i havent worn but once in my closet..so i guess ill wear one tomorrow.. and i guess thats about it. hmmm..one more thing..i got so many compliments on how nice and stuff i looked today but i dont see anyone interested in dating me...im lost.