Where I Am Now
For the past few entries, I've either ranted, or it's been just a quick update, but I have some extra time tonight. Time to use it for something other than homework.
OK, so everyone who knows me, knows I hate this time of year. Six days until the worst holiday ever. Oh well, it's not important this year. I'm not as upset about it as usual, because it doesn't really matter. I'll find someone when I'm meant to, and VDay has nothing to do with it. I'm over my hopeless crushes and feelings...I like someone, a lot, but he's not like the other guys I've liked, and it feels a little different, too. We'll see where it goes. And if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen.
I had a talk w/ Shayne last week, we're just friends, which is fine. I don't even think I want more anymore. I know I don't actually. It was a phase. We're good friends, and that's fine. Haven't heard from ND in months, that's fine too. I don't need people in my life who don't want me in theirs. I'm a big girl, lol.
School. Much better than I thought it would be. I have an A in my education class, a perfect grade so far, actually. It's effing cake. My writing class is more challenging, but I'm loving every minute of it. I look forward to it, even if it is at 800 am every other Saturday. No grades in that one yet, but I'm learning a lot.
Work. Some money stress, but I'm going to handle that soon. I do more work than I should, but it's okay. The atmosphere, and being around awesome people, makes it worthwhile.
I was thinking back to a year ago, and you know, I don't really like who I was back then. I was plastic, and trying to fit in, and please people who don't really matter. Now, I have amazing friends, and I go out and do things, and I do this b/c I'm myself. People are accepting me as me, and that's an awesome feeling. I'm excelling at school, and at work. I have an awesome car that I'm paying for. Fuck people that said I couldn't do it. I'm not stupid, and I'm not intimidated anymore. I am me. And that's okay. I was even brave enough to sing in front of people. Maybe I'm tired, from staying out late, and homework, and work, and a million other things. Maybe my rooms are a mess. But I'm happy.
OK, so everyone who knows me, knows I hate this time of year. Six days until the worst holiday ever. Oh well, it's not important this year. I'm not as upset about it as usual, because it doesn't really matter. I'll find someone when I'm meant to, and VDay has nothing to do with it. I'm over my hopeless crushes and feelings...I like someone, a lot, but he's not like the other guys I've liked, and it feels a little different, too. We'll see where it goes. And if it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen.
I had a talk w/ Shayne last week, we're just friends, which is fine. I don't even think I want more anymore. I know I don't actually. It was a phase. We're good friends, and that's fine. Haven't heard from ND in months, that's fine too. I don't need people in my life who don't want me in theirs. I'm a big girl, lol.
School. Much better than I thought it would be. I have an A in my education class, a perfect grade so far, actually. It's effing cake. My writing class is more challenging, but I'm loving every minute of it. I look forward to it, even if it is at 800 am every other Saturday. No grades in that one yet, but I'm learning a lot.
Work. Some money stress, but I'm going to handle that soon. I do more work than I should, but it's okay. The atmosphere, and being around awesome people, makes it worthwhile.
I was thinking back to a year ago, and you know, I don't really like who I was back then. I was plastic, and trying to fit in, and please people who don't really matter. Now, I have amazing friends, and I go out and do things, and I do this b/c I'm myself. People are accepting me as me, and that's an awesome feeling. I'm excelling at school, and at work. I have an awesome car that I'm paying for. Fuck people that said I couldn't do it. I'm not stupid, and I'm not intimidated anymore. I am me. And that's okay. I was even brave enough to sing in front of people. Maybe I'm tired, from staying out late, and homework, and work, and a million other things. Maybe my rooms are a mess. But I'm happy.