hates.
i lay in my bed and things i hate go throught my mind. i hate that my dad died when i was three and didnt find out the real reason until i was 15. i hate that my brother dosnt live with us any more. i hate andew and my job. i hate that im not focused on school like i should be. i hate that i dont have a best friend like i use to back in maryland. i hate that i dont have a strong relationship with my mom and i just cant go up to her and tell her anything. i hate that the person i love so much is a serect. i hate that i cant just get up and leave. i hate when people tell me to smile all the time. i hate that i always feel like shit. i hate that when i lay in my bed and all of this randomness go through my head. i want to run away from all of it. i want to be on my own. dependent person. just break away from everyone and everything. i come home at night and hide in my room and sometimes just cry. cry myself to sleep. why do i get like this all of the sudden? i bet you could never guess i have all this mixed emotions through my mind and no one to share them with or talk to. im feel alone in a dark empty room.