An unexpected start to a new chapter. Sprinkled with ambiguity, of course!
"Honesty is not always synonymous with truth," says a Scorcese character.
That sentence was nowhere near what I'd intended to open with, but I just discovered LiveJournal has an automatic "draft save" feature. I haven't updated in almost a year to the day, and have no idea when I started that, but what a place to walk away from! I honestly (pah!) don't have any recollection of the thoughts pursuant to that statement, but I'd love to get back there. The best stuff comes from a distressed heart. The rest is just filler.
ANYWAY..
Since, as mentioned, it has been nearly 365 days since my most recent post I thought it prudent to update.
I skimmed through my posts and don't think I've made any mention of my current employer...which is a little odd considering I've held this one longer than any other job in my working history (4 years & counting!). APi gave me the opportunity to get out of the shithole gym I worked my ass off for $12/hour and turned into the luckiest break I'll most likely ever get. The chemical company started out as weekly part time receptionist income for me. Four years (and 50+ hours weekly) later I've not only written and designed every piece of marketing the company distributes, but I've single-handedly created systems, protocols, and processes that will be used for years to come. I've spent the past four months heading up the company's inside sales and marketing. It's been a rocky road with tons of success and even more stress. Keep in mind - I had no schooling, no prior experience, and no mentor to coddle me through this. Everything I accomplished at APi between 2005 and 2009 was based on sheer common sense, motivation, and imagination. I was given a ton of responsibility with lots of room to roam and went for it. As I dug my heels in a little deeper I discovered how much I hated it. I'd cry while I was showering in the morning, dreading what terrible adventure may have been lurking at the office that day. But in hating most of what I did, I accidentally discovered what I loved.
I put in my notice last month. I promised the company a smooth transitional period in which I'd stay until the right person was found and trained. I explained that, pending their congruence, I'd remain there through the summer and leave once fall began.
August 2009 Lindsey goes to college. I unfortunately, annoyingly, begrudgingly, and kicking myself in the ass (ly) start at the community college. After that, I plan to apply to Journalism School(s) elsewhere in the country...if the cards fall where I hope they will, "elsewhere" translates to NY. But if I've learned anything over the past four years, it's that today's hopes aren't always in sync with tomorrow's realities. NY or not, I will be a journalist, hopefully sometime in the next 10 years.
So, for those few that survived my LJ and happen to still read my nonsense once a year when I update, you'll have more interesting stories one day soon. They'll be written on glossy pages and accompanied by a byline. Promise.
That sentence was nowhere near what I'd intended to open with, but I just discovered LiveJournal has an automatic "draft save" feature. I haven't updated in almost a year to the day, and have no idea when I started that, but what a place to walk away from! I honestly (pah!) don't have any recollection of the thoughts pursuant to that statement, but I'd love to get back there. The best stuff comes from a distressed heart. The rest is just filler.
ANYWAY..
Since, as mentioned, it has been nearly 365 days since my most recent post I thought it prudent to update.
I skimmed through my posts and don't think I've made any mention of my current employer...which is a little odd considering I've held this one longer than any other job in my working history (4 years & counting!). APi gave me the opportunity to get out of the shithole gym I worked my ass off for $12/hour and turned into the luckiest break I'll most likely ever get. The chemical company started out as weekly part time receptionist income for me. Four years (and 50+ hours weekly) later I've not only written and designed every piece of marketing the company distributes, but I've single-handedly created systems, protocols, and processes that will be used for years to come. I've spent the past four months heading up the company's inside sales and marketing. It's been a rocky road with tons of success and even more stress. Keep in mind - I had no schooling, no prior experience, and no mentor to coddle me through this. Everything I accomplished at APi between 2005 and 2009 was based on sheer common sense, motivation, and imagination. I was given a ton of responsibility with lots of room to roam and went for it. As I dug my heels in a little deeper I discovered how much I hated it. I'd cry while I was showering in the morning, dreading what terrible adventure may have been lurking at the office that day. But in hating most of what I did, I accidentally discovered what I loved.
I put in my notice last month. I promised the company a smooth transitional period in which I'd stay until the right person was found and trained. I explained that, pending their congruence, I'd remain there through the summer and leave once fall began.
August 2009 Lindsey goes to college. I unfortunately, annoyingly, begrudgingly, and kicking myself in the ass (ly) start at the community college. After that, I plan to apply to Journalism School(s) elsewhere in the country...if the cards fall where I hope they will, "elsewhere" translates to NY. But if I've learned anything over the past four years, it's that today's hopes aren't always in sync with tomorrow's realities. NY or not, I will be a journalist, hopefully sometime in the next 10 years.
So, for those few that survived my LJ and happen to still read my nonsense once a year when I update, you'll have more interesting stories one day soon. They'll be written on glossy pages and accompanied by a byline. Promise.