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[originalhippie]

Sometimes you think you need somthing
and it's not what you really want at all
Or what you want someone else to want

My life is headed in a very hazy direction as of now
I dont really see myself going to Portland, because my priorities have changed, in a semi good, heart wrenching way that only i can explain.

i should do the streaming conciousness thingy
like we used to do in English

It shouldnt be about you, you being the only person who i want to see at the moment, the person whose scent i can't remember until i smell it again. I am vaguely aware that i'm rushing this, to try to get somewhere to make sure you are not faking it. To make sure i wont be alone in this. to make sure that, well there are alot of things i need to make sure of but never will.

The hardest thing about ending a relationship is finding a way to fill the time.

Is it safe to say
that i'm mixed up
swirling in the eddies
letting it pull me
into a new direction
a new picture
a memory
captured when i first saw
how much
i could ever
love
again

i think i will go back to being vague