who's that rap rap rapping??
wow, so i guess LJ decided to update or something.. sure hope i can post this..
so i heard this weird knocking outside, and no one is there. it's not like knocking on the door. but just weird. and taylor 1 is being mean and scaring me. and it's no fun.
mom and dad and brian are at the lake. i pissed mom off earlier. we were walking the track and she was like "you're no fun to walk w/.. you don't ever talk"
i just explained to her that i didnt' talk b/c i wasn't interested in anything she had to say or talk about. and she got all pissed and made us leave. so if some crazy stalker guy is outside, she probably would be glad... TOO COOL!
well... when we were walking, part of the reason i was so quiet is because i've needed some time to think.-- i don't know if i really believe in god. i'm sure there's something out there. but it makes no sense how "someone" could promise all this great stuff after people are so horrible. including myself. it just doesn't add up. mom said she loved the sound of locusts. but "god" sent them as a plague... supposedly... if there is a god, then why would (s)he allow me to think like this... i'm just so confused.
everytime something good happens, i don't throw up my hands and say "AMEN!! THANK YOU LORD!" no. i say hm. thats nice. this is nothing out of the ordinary... i just don't even know anymore. i would hate to be wrong and end up going to hell. but i would also hate to be right and just die.
it all just sucks.
so i heard this weird knocking outside, and no one is there. it's not like knocking on the door. but just weird. and taylor 1 is being mean and scaring me. and it's no fun.
mom and dad and brian are at the lake. i pissed mom off earlier. we were walking the track and she was like "you're no fun to walk w/.. you don't ever talk"
i just explained to her that i didnt' talk b/c i wasn't interested in anything she had to say or talk about. and she got all pissed and made us leave. so if some crazy stalker guy is outside, she probably would be glad... TOO COOL!
well... when we were walking, part of the reason i was so quiet is because i've needed some time to think.-- i don't know if i really believe in god. i'm sure there's something out there. but it makes no sense how "someone" could promise all this great stuff after people are so horrible. including myself. it just doesn't add up. mom said she loved the sound of locusts. but "god" sent them as a plague... supposedly... if there is a god, then why would (s)he allow me to think like this... i'm just so confused.
everytime something good happens, i don't throw up my hands and say "AMEN!! THANK YOU LORD!" no. i say hm. thats nice. this is nothing out of the ordinary... i just don't even know anymore. i would hate to be wrong and end up going to hell. but i would also hate to be right and just die.
it all just sucks.