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life is getting a little different. i'm scared, for the future.
i love how life is now. i love how it's been for the past year. i love my boyfriend.
i wish so much that everything would stay exactly the same, for ever.
he's leaving for a month of two on and off in the summer, and then he's gone for good in august. we had fun in new york, i'm glad we got to take that little vacation. but now it's close to done.
i cried infront of him for the first time yesterday because i just couldn't pretend i was okay anymore. and everyone who knows me, knows that once i start crying it takes a lot for me to stop. thats unfortunate. either way, this is gonna be really hard for me. i'm gonna freak out a lot, i'm gonna cry a ton, and i'm not gonna know what to do with myself for a few weeks, maybe months, once august comes along. life sucks sometimes.
we planned on staying together, but i'm starting to realize that it really won't be easy. it might be quite impossible, being that he's going to a very strict school, his moms moving away from miami, and he even works in maine in the summer. he won't get much vaca time, and he's ridiculously far away. either way, im trying hard to stuck it up and enjoy the last of our time together. hoping for a miracle.
i love how life is now. i love how it's been for the past year. i love my boyfriend.
i wish so much that everything would stay exactly the same, for ever.
he's leaving for a month of two on and off in the summer, and then he's gone for good in august. we had fun in new york, i'm glad we got to take that little vacation. but now it's close to done.
i cried infront of him for the first time yesterday because i just couldn't pretend i was okay anymore. and everyone who knows me, knows that once i start crying it takes a lot for me to stop. thats unfortunate. either way, this is gonna be really hard for me. i'm gonna freak out a lot, i'm gonna cry a ton, and i'm not gonna know what to do with myself for a few weeks, maybe months, once august comes along. life sucks sometimes.
we planned on staying together, but i'm starting to realize that it really won't be easy. it might be quite impossible, being that he's going to a very strict school, his moms moving away from miami, and he even works in maine in the summer. he won't get much vaca time, and he's ridiculously far away. either way, im trying hard to stuck it up and enjoy the last of our time together. hoping for a miracle.