i dont give a damn anymore
Well life for me lately has litterally been short of a place called hell... I can't stand living in my house anymore its such a horrible place lately.. all everybody does is yell at one another. I try my hardest in school and at home and all of that but yet nothing comes good out of it. You know i bust my ass litterally studying and all of that and pulling Straight A's right now which i have NEVER done in my life before and yet my life is the craziest its ever been before too.. i think lately that school is my only get away how sad is that.. i never get to do anything but go to school and to a movie or do something everynow and then on a friday. Its horrible not going to the same school as Dustin its really starting to catch up. We are fighting a lot more than we used to but we will be ok everything will always work itself out. I can't stand the fact that my house is hell. Everybody just yells. I just clean and do what i have to do all the time.. and i dont even get a freaking thank you sometimes i just want to beat the hell out of my mom. She is just making so many mistakes that i cant control, that i can't talk her out of. Nothing ever changes i cant wait until i get out of this house... its hell
other than that im at my dads just hanging out this weekend sucks because i cant hang out w/ne1 this weekend is boring but we dont have school. Homecomming is next week :) im just worried because i think that my dress is too fancy, to promish. But oh well its still really pretty but its floor length and hot.. :/ just one night though its not that bad atleast ill look like a princess lol jk.
Tomorrow i have church which im excited about i havent been in a while ... i really depend on God lately he seems like he is the only one who is totally there for me.. even though i kno obviously that i cant see him, i still believe and he will save me and bring me out of this crappy situation that im in right now. Things will get better if i just keep my head up.
on a much lighter note.. peer counciling this year is really cool, i feel like im learning a lot more about myself and all. I know what i want to be when im older and i know what i have to do to get there its just going to take me a while to get there is all that and a lot of school lol. History of all subjects i really like too in the past i hated it but now mrs.reynolds is really cool. Plus Elex is in that class and thats a plus! because well that kid is like so freakin funni duh! Melissa i love you gurlie your my heart! <3
I want to eat my frozen snickers now!!
later guys
other than that im at my dads just hanging out this weekend sucks because i cant hang out w/ne1 this weekend is boring but we dont have school. Homecomming is next week :) im just worried because i think that my dress is too fancy, to promish. But oh well its still really pretty but its floor length and hot.. :/ just one night though its not that bad atleast ill look like a princess lol jk.
Tomorrow i have church which im excited about i havent been in a while ... i really depend on God lately he seems like he is the only one who is totally there for me.. even though i kno obviously that i cant see him, i still believe and he will save me and bring me out of this crappy situation that im in right now. Things will get better if i just keep my head up.
on a much lighter note.. peer counciling this year is really cool, i feel like im learning a lot more about myself and all. I know what i want to be when im older and i know what i have to do to get there its just going to take me a while to get there is all that and a lot of school lol. History of all subjects i really like too in the past i hated it but now mrs.reynolds is really cool. Plus Elex is in that class and thats a plus! because well that kid is like so freakin funni duh! Melissa i love you gurlie your my heart! <3
I want to eat my frozen snickers now!!
later guys