Duty and Desire: An Unfortunate Love Triangle
Duty and Desire: An Unfortunate Love Triangle DM/HP/GW
Um, I feel like I should explain this. I was hanging the washing on the line, listening to "Love Me Like You" by The Magic Numbers and I couldn't stop thinking of this whole complicated Harry Potter, Ginny Weasley, Draco Malfoy storyline. I was also thinking it tends to be a favoured storline by many HP/DM fanfic writers (along with the love rectangle of HP/GW/DM/PP). Anyway, when I came inside I started writing down what I had in my head and I honestly thought it would have to have an awesome soundtrack... just because angty relationships always do. So I came up with this and honsetly, I'm quite in lust with it as it has a whole bunch of my favourite tracks on it... and it's not completely angsty and down. *cheers*
Side note: Partially dedicated to jamie2109 and her abso-freaking-lutely beautiful 4-part fic Please Don't Ask Me
Also, this is mostly from Harry and Draco's POV's with a side of Ginny.
Cover Work:
** I didn't want to use Dan/Tom/Bonnie on the cover work because I keep thinking of them early to mid-twenties and they kinda still look kiddy-ish in the GoF promo shots... so we have Boyd Holbrook as Draco, Ben Jelen as Harry and Cintia Dicker as Ginny (and aren't they all god damn hot?).
Tracks/Explanations:
Don't - M2M (Harry's POV)
don't look at me with that smile // don't act like everything's fine // stop putting dreams in my head // when i should've thought of him instead // when you say the things you do // it makes me want to be with you // everytime that she kisses me // you're always what i see // no, no, no, no // you make me forget about her // no, no, no, no*
[[When Harry see's Draco he forgets about Ginny. He thinks about everything he could have - everything he wants with Draco.]]
Lie In The Sound - Trespasser William (Draco's POV)
I love you more than I should // so much more than is good for me // more than is good // oh the timing is cruel // oh I need and don't want to need // more than I should // I am falling // say my name and I’ll lie in the sound // what is love but whatever my heart needs around
[[Draco know he shouldn't be falling for (or be in love with) Harry but it's happening whether he likes it or not.]]
Love Me Like You - The Magic Numbers (Harry's POV)
she don't love me like you // she don't know what you do // and it's so hard // she don't care what you say // so just say it, say it anyway // it's so hard // all my life // oh they tried to push me down // oh, but baby you can turn it round // oh, but honey I still see you
[[Harry knows how Draco feels about him. He knows how he feels about Draco. He knows Ginny doesn't even come close to pushing his buttons the way Draco can.]]
Honestly - Bethany Joy Lenz (Draco and Harry's POV's)
Please believe // that I tried my best to forget you // but the memories keep flooding back like tears // I didn't mean to fall in love // sitting here just waiting for this is torture // i'm so glad you're far away // is that a terrible thing to say? // but I wonder if you're okay
[[They're both doing their best to forget about each other, they know it's better that way. But everytime they almost get there something snaps and it all comes back ten-fold. They never meant to fall in love - it just happened. It's better when they're apart and they can't act on their feelings - or at least feel tempted to; no matter what they still care, they both still want to know the other is okay.]]
Falling - K-otic (Draco's POV)
I'm falling // wish I wouldn't be // 'cause I hate the sound when you break me // something keeps me falling back again // I'm falling // wish you wouldn't see // the way through me so easily // falling all over again // now I'm giving in // i'm gonna let you win // 'cause I got no defences // take your shot at me // while you can.
[[Harry's the only one who can make Draco feel this way... and he doesn't like it. He feels weak and powerless when it comes to the other man.]]
Don't Confess (This Thing That Breaks My Heart) - Tegan and Sara (Harry and Draco's POV's)
don’t think I’ll confess // why would I confess that I // don’t think I’ll deny // why would I deny that I // don’t be so hard on yourself // you won’t get better til you’re worse // yeah you // send a little smile my way // and don’t be so hard on yourself // you won’t get better til you’re worse // yeah you // send a little love my way // every second I spend waiting // drags me closer to this grave // i’m not alone // no, I’m just on my own // and I, it's a little cold outside
[[I kinda hope the song is self explanatory but; they're both refusing to confess how they feel. If they don't confirm or deny their feelings they can't get hurt.]]
King of Wishful Thinking - Go West (Draco's POV)
i’ll get over you..I know I will // i’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking // and I’ll tell myself I’m over you // 'cause I’m the king of wishful thinking // i’ll get over you..I know I will // i’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking // and I’ll tell myself I’m over you // ‘cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
[[Draco tries to convince himself that no matter what, he'll get over Harry. That no matter what, he's in control of his emotions and heart.]]
Bonus Tracks:
Please Don't Ask Me - John Farnham (Harry's POV)
please don't ask me what am i thinking // it's about you // and please don't ask me // I never can see you // what can i do // my first impulse is to run to your side // my heart's not free, and so i must hide // please don't ask me // what i'm gonna say to you // I toss and turn // can't sleep at night // it's worrying me, I go to bed // turn out the light // but your face i see // it only hurts // the more i pretend // that we could ever // be more than friends // please don't ask me // why I'm so in love with you // you could easily make me happy // that I know // but I try my best to never tell you so // I will sing to you my love songs // and pretend but I'll keep my distance right down // to the end // please don't ask me why I'm not talking // I just can't explain // and please don't ask me // why I go walking out in the rain // I could not live the lie it would take // to have you here would be a mistake // please don't ask me // why I'm so in love with you // no please don't ask me
[[If you've read Jamie's fic you'll understand all about this one. It just effing hurts. My favourite all time John Farnham track that breaks my heart everytime I hear it (yet I like to put it on repeat). And yeah, that's all the lyrics, the song pwn's me.]]
Learn To Be Lonely - Minnie Driver (Draco's POV)
never dreamed, out in the world // there are arms to hold you // you've always known // your heart was on it's own // so laugh in your loneliness // child of the wilderness // learn to be lonely // learn how to love // life that is lived alone // learn to be lonely // life can be lived // life can be loved // alone
[[Snagged this pearl off the Phantom of the Opera soundtrack because it's kinda my song. Anyway, I think of it as Draco's song (in this respect) because I've kinda always thought that he's the kind of guy who believe's he isn't destined or doesn't deserve to be loved. It's easier to learn to be lonely than to put yourself out there only to be hurt.]]
Download: Duty and Desire.zip 38.18 Mb
::Please note: this is now a permanant link. Unless I choose to delete it.::
* Yes, I did change the male to the female in the lyrics on this track just so that it looks as I see it. The song still fits, just gotta change the gender.
** Please note, these are just my interpretations of the songs based on the situation running through my head (and the whole thing has yet to come to fruitrition as it is).
Notes:
Pics: hires_hunks & Cintia Dicker Fan [dot] ORG
Fonts: GF Gestez (48pt); Gourmand (11pt); Old English Text MT (between 11 and 18pt).
Other Stuff by: illgoest & gender
Um, I feel like I should explain this. I was hanging the washing on the line, listening to "Love Me Like You" by The Magic Numbers and I couldn't stop thinking of this whole complicated Harry Potter, Ginny Weasley, Draco Malfoy storyline. I was also thinking it tends to be a favoured storline by many HP/DM fanfic writers (along with the love rectangle of HP/GW/DM/PP). Anyway, when I came inside I started writing down what I had in my head and I honestly thought it would have to have an awesome soundtrack... just because angty relationships always do. So I came up with this and honsetly, I'm quite in lust with it as it has a whole bunch of my favourite tracks on it... and it's not completely angsty and down. *cheers*
Side note: Partially dedicated to jamie2109 and her abso-freaking-lutely beautiful 4-part fic Please Don't Ask Me
Also, this is mostly from Harry and Draco's POV's with a side of Ginny.
Cover Work:
** I didn't want to use Dan/Tom/Bonnie on the cover work because I keep thinking of them early to mid-twenties and they kinda still look kiddy-ish in the GoF promo shots... so we have Boyd Holbrook as Draco, Ben Jelen as Harry and Cintia Dicker as Ginny (and aren't they all god damn hot?).
Tracks/Explanations:
Don't - M2M (Harry's POV)
don't look at me with that smile // don't act like everything's fine // stop putting dreams in my head // when i should've thought of him instead // when you say the things you do // it makes me want to be with you // everytime that she kisses me // you're always what i see // no, no, no, no // you make me forget about her // no, no, no, no*
[[When Harry see's Draco he forgets about Ginny. He thinks about everything he could have - everything he wants with Draco.]]
Lie In The Sound - Trespasser William (Draco's POV)
I love you more than I should // so much more than is good for me // more than is good // oh the timing is cruel // oh I need and don't want to need // more than I should // I am falling // say my name and I’ll lie in the sound // what is love but whatever my heart needs around
[[Draco know he shouldn't be falling for (or be in love with) Harry but it's happening whether he likes it or not.]]
Love Me Like You - The Magic Numbers (Harry's POV)
she don't love me like you // she don't know what you do // and it's so hard // she don't care what you say // so just say it, say it anyway // it's so hard // all my life // oh they tried to push me down // oh, but baby you can turn it round // oh, but honey I still see you
[[Harry knows how Draco feels about him. He knows how he feels about Draco. He knows Ginny doesn't even come close to pushing his buttons the way Draco can.]]
Honestly - Bethany Joy Lenz (Draco and Harry's POV's)
Please believe // that I tried my best to forget you // but the memories keep flooding back like tears // I didn't mean to fall in love // sitting here just waiting for this is torture // i'm so glad you're far away // is that a terrible thing to say? // but I wonder if you're okay
[[They're both doing their best to forget about each other, they know it's better that way. But everytime they almost get there something snaps and it all comes back ten-fold. They never meant to fall in love - it just happened. It's better when they're apart and they can't act on their feelings - or at least feel tempted to; no matter what they still care, they both still want to know the other is okay.]]
Falling - K-otic (Draco's POV)
I'm falling // wish I wouldn't be // 'cause I hate the sound when you break me // something keeps me falling back again // I'm falling // wish you wouldn't see // the way through me so easily // falling all over again // now I'm giving in // i'm gonna let you win // 'cause I got no defences // take your shot at me // while you can.
[[Harry's the only one who can make Draco feel this way... and he doesn't like it. He feels weak and powerless when it comes to the other man.]]
Don't Confess (This Thing That Breaks My Heart) - Tegan and Sara (Harry and Draco's POV's)
don’t think I’ll confess // why would I confess that I // don’t think I’ll deny // why would I deny that I // don’t be so hard on yourself // you won’t get better til you’re worse // yeah you // send a little smile my way // and don’t be so hard on yourself // you won’t get better til you’re worse // yeah you // send a little love my way // every second I spend waiting // drags me closer to this grave // i’m not alone // no, I’m just on my own // and I, it's a little cold outside
[[I kinda hope the song is self explanatory but; they're both refusing to confess how they feel. If they don't confirm or deny their feelings they can't get hurt.]]
King of Wishful Thinking - Go West (Draco's POV)
i’ll get over you..I know I will // i’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking // and I’ll tell myself I’m over you // 'cause I’m the king of wishful thinking // i’ll get over you..I know I will // i’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking // and I’ll tell myself I’m over you // ‘cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
[[Draco tries to convince himself that no matter what, he'll get over Harry. That no matter what, he's in control of his emotions and heart.]]
Bonus Tracks:
Please Don't Ask Me - John Farnham (Harry's POV)
please don't ask me what am i thinking // it's about you // and please don't ask me // I never can see you // what can i do // my first impulse is to run to your side // my heart's not free, and so i must hide // please don't ask me // what i'm gonna say to you // I toss and turn // can't sleep at night // it's worrying me, I go to bed // turn out the light // but your face i see // it only hurts // the more i pretend // that we could ever // be more than friends // please don't ask me // why I'm so in love with you // you could easily make me happy // that I know // but I try my best to never tell you so // I will sing to you my love songs // and pretend but I'll keep my distance right down // to the end // please don't ask me why I'm not talking // I just can't explain // and please don't ask me // why I go walking out in the rain // I could not live the lie it would take // to have you here would be a mistake // please don't ask me // why I'm so in love with you // no please don't ask me
[[If you've read Jamie's fic you'll understand all about this one. It just effing hurts. My favourite all time John Farnham track that breaks my heart everytime I hear it (yet I like to put it on repeat). And yeah, that's all the lyrics, the song pwn's me.]]
Learn To Be Lonely - Minnie Driver (Draco's POV)
never dreamed, out in the world // there are arms to hold you // you've always known // your heart was on it's own // so laugh in your loneliness // child of the wilderness // learn to be lonely // learn how to love // life that is lived alone // learn to be lonely // life can be lived // life can be loved // alone
[[Snagged this pearl off the Phantom of the Opera soundtrack because it's kinda my song. Anyway, I think of it as Draco's song (in this respect) because I've kinda always thought that he's the kind of guy who believe's he isn't destined or doesn't deserve to be loved. It's easier to learn to be lonely than to put yourself out there only to be hurt.]]
Download: Duty and Desire.zip 38.18 Mb
::Please note: this is now a permanant link. Unless I choose to delete it.::
* Yes, I did change the male to the female in the lyrics on this track just so that it looks as I see it. The song still fits, just gotta change the gender.
** Please note, these are just my interpretations of the songs based on the situation running through my head (and the whole thing has yet to come to fruitrition as it is).
Notes:
Pics: hires_hunks & Cintia Dicker Fan [dot] ORG
Fonts: GF Gestez (48pt); Gourmand (11pt); Old English Text MT (between 11 and 18pt).
Other Stuff by: illgoest & gender