Family woes.

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You know, I've never actually said I hate my family, but there are so many problems that are present that it makes me really sad. There's always some screaming going on, some kind of argument and while my family doesn't resort to any physical violence, it still hurts when loud words are exchanged. I think the root of the problems comes from my brothers. I feel like both of them are acting way more immature than they are. Both are spoiled and totally lack any kind of empathy. And as much as it hurts to think about it, I'm pretty sure it's because my parents didn't bring them up properly. They've never exercised any kind of discipline on them, especially the youngest one. I can see him running wild when he gets to be a teenager. And I'm kind of tired of trying to fix everything. Sometimes they listen to me, but frankly I don't have the same authority as parents would, you know? I'm so sick of how everyone fights with grandma. I know that she's really immature and even I sometimes gets in fights with her. But when words like "I can't wait to die!" and "Then go die." are exchanged, it makes me wanna cry. Why is everyone so reckless in their speech. When she does finally go, I don't want my brothers to finally grow up and realize what kind of stuff they used to say and how that affected everyone.

Sigh. I don't know what I can do. I'm kind of glad I have college to keep my mind of this. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my family to bits and my relationship with my parents have never been better, but as a whole, I feel like we're lacking something really important. I just wish everyone would stop yelling so I would feel less hopeless in the recovery of my family.