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ah ah ah :((((((
i feel like crying.. i had a fight earlier today with J.. and the absolute worst thing is that it was over such the smallest stupidest insignificant thing.
i'm so ashamed i don't even want to write it here.. even though i should. i did start this thing wanting to put every single detail that i might want to remember later in life.. however I'm sure this one i don't want to embarass myself over later.
oh, it's just a mix of the worst feelings.. at the same time i feel angry, yet i don't want to snap and lose him, i feel stupid, immature, every negative emotion you can get.
this is affecting me alot.. my mom talks and i get snappy... my brother asks something and i get really annoyed.. man, i hate this feeling...
i wish i can just tell him how sorry i am, but it's not my fault, neither his.. and i'm too proud to blame it on myself when it's not my fault to begin with.. i'm sure he's thinking the same thing.. i mean 3 years i practically know him to the bones..
i feel like crying.. i had a fight earlier today with J.. and the absolute worst thing is that it was over such the smallest stupidest insignificant thing.
i'm so ashamed i don't even want to write it here.. even though i should. i did start this thing wanting to put every single detail that i might want to remember later in life.. however I'm sure this one i don't want to embarass myself over later.
oh, it's just a mix of the worst feelings.. at the same time i feel angry, yet i don't want to snap and lose him, i feel stupid, immature, every negative emotion you can get.
this is affecting me alot.. my mom talks and i get snappy... my brother asks something and i get really annoyed.. man, i hate this feeling...
i wish i can just tell him how sorry i am, but it's not my fault, neither his.. and i'm too proud to blame it on myself when it's not my fault to begin with.. i'm sure he's thinking the same thing.. i mean 3 years i practically know him to the bones..